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Story of a government employee who was dismissed from her job after the coup attempt for being a former member of a worker\u2019s union. She hopes to have a better life in another country as she already feels like a stranger to her own home country.<\/span><\/p>\n

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I give consent this conversation to be recorded and used. When the coup happened, I was a government employee for 10 years. It was 20 days after the coup when I was suspended from my job. I was dismissed by the first governmental decree because of having a membership in a worker’s union in the past even though I had canceled my membership with that union and was a member of another one at the time. I f\u0131rst learned that this was the reason when I had been detained for a year. We never knew what we were accused of during this time and why this was happening to us.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Highly respected people suddenly became terrorists. During the ten years of my life as a government official, I have never used or taken home even one single needle which belonged to the state property. So being labeled as terrorists was beyond acceptable for those of us who had never been to any police station before for any reason. Dignity and esteem are very important to us, as we used to be the people who were very much valued, respected and loved by our friends and family. People used to take us as examples in our social circles. I expect in the future, the terrorist label, which has a very heavy toll on us, will at least be removed from us.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was dismissed from my job on September 1st by the first governmental decree announced at midnight. We were expecting this. I went to the balcony to breathe for a second, because after seeing my name on the list I couldn\u2019t breathe. Then my husband came and held my arms. I think he thought I was going to jump out of the balcony, but I knew that it wasn\u2019t the end of the world. On the second day, another governmental decree was published regarding college degrees and work permits to be revoked. I was worried about my bachelor\u2019s degree being revoked since I was almost finished with my master\u2019s degree. But they revoked the work permits, not the college degrees. Like that, we were banned from working anywhere, but I was glad that they didn’t do the same with the college diplomas because it had been really hard to get my Bachelor\u2019s degree with my baby in the picture. I had started my Master\u2019s, and after completing the courses, I was getting ready to submit my thesis. So all of that effort in vain would be more devastating for me, but thank God that didn\u2019t happen. In the meantime, I was able to get my Masters degree, but we are still waiting to be reappointed to work. During this time, I had 5 trials in court. With 3-4 month intervals in between, I was detained for 8 days.<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s all because of being a member of a worker’s union which is a constitutional right. Furthermore, union payments are deducted from our salary, which in fact means the government is actually paying our membership dues. It\u2019s the government who is paying the union dues but it\u2019s us who are being detained. Very strange. It\u2019s a constitutional right. Also, I left that union one year before the coup and registered to another union but still they regarded it as a crime. May God save all innocent people.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I went to court five times. My case was closed after the fifth appearance. The case is now at the Commission of the State of Emergency. We never know if we will be able to return to our jobs. I know many friends whose cases were also closed but they never got their jobs back. We don\u2019t know if we will ever get back what we had worked so hard for in the past, we are just waiting.<\/span><\/p>\n

Let me tell you how I was arrested. Going to bed every night, we feared that the police would come for us. It was 6:30 in the morning. 3-4 policemen came to our door who were from Counter-terrorism. We used to watch it on TV when they were conducting operations on real terrorists. It\u2019s very sad and heartbreaking that they\u2019re now doing the same thing to those of us who always loved and valued our country. We would have never imagined such a thing. They raided the house and searched everywhere.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was detained in July 2017, which was almost a year after the coup. That night I told the police, \u201cIt has been so long since the coup, so what are you expecting to find?\u201d They said it was just the procedure, and I think they knew that it was all political. So I can\u2019t say they treated me badly apart from the fact that the experience itself was horrible. Although they were nice to me and didn\u2019t handcuff me, in the end I left the house with the police escorting me on the street where I had lived for many years. The neighborhood representative saw my husband and told him not to worry, as the police detained someone else from the next street the other day, so I would probably be released within a week.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My son was 4 and a half when I was detained. Actually, he was used to me not being home some days as I was studying at the university for my Master\u2019s degree. I would tell him the previous night that I would not be home the next day. After that night, he woke up in the morning and realized I was not home. My sister came home as my husband was making breakfast for our son and she told him that I went to the hospital or someplace else. He looked everywhere in the house trying to find me and said \u201cShe is not here, indeed.\u201d We live very close to my parents\u2019 house and normally he would go and stay there for days and wouldn\u2019t mind me not being around but I think he also felt that there was something wrong, so he kept asking for me and didn\u2019t want to stay there.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

When I got back home, he acted very distant to me at first and I tried to tell him that it wasn\u2019t me who wanted to leave and I was taken away. Only then he hugged and kissed me and asked why I stayed for that long. He was only 4 and a half at the time. Then, my sister got arrested for about nine months and we told her children and my son that she was in the hospital. My brother-in-law\u2019s wife gave birth and we went to hospital to visit her where the kids started asking if she went to hospital for the same reason as my sister.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My son realized that something was wrong and we were hiding something. When under detainment, my only worry was what would happen to my child if I was arrested. How long would I stay in the prison? How old would my son be when I got out? I was devastated to find a way to explain the situation in case of a long imprisonment. And being an educator, I was trying to find the best scenario that would cause the least trauma. Perhaps we could tell him that I was away for work but then he might think I was choosing money over him. Or maybe we could say I was sick and at the hospital but then what if he got too worried about it. I think there is no way to save the kids or adults from this trauma. The other day, I told my sister that this is such a big shock in our lives that is going to stay with us forever and there is no going back.<\/span><\/p>\n

During the time I was in detention, I kept asking the police officers what would happen next. They laughed at us. Since they were always dealing with the people who were charged with criminal issues, they got used to the official procedure. So they assumed that we knew the procedure as well. Then I told them that we had never been to a police station before for any reason, and asked them to explain to us what the next steps were. The officers were nice to us. I know that some people experienced maltreatment at some other places, especially in city X, but that wasn\u2019t the case for us. So there we were, locked in behind the bars, with no sunshine, the light was always on. So it becomes impossible to tell day from night. That’s why we had to ask the prayer times to the police and only then we could know. Even that was enough to make one depressed. There was no tea, it was regarded as a luxury, only water, and sometimes juice with the meals. We had our families buy us water there when they came to visit, as the water there was not good to drink. Even if we stayed there only for one week, we cleaned it up to make it a liveable place. We used that place very carefully, because everything belonged to the state.<\/span><\/p>\n

My son was told I was at the hospital during those days, and in that way I explained to him that I had to go to the hospital urgently, that otherwise I would have told him beforehand. After coming home, we were like a single body as he wouldn\u2019t leave my side even for a moment. He wasn\u2019t like that before. He was okay while I was working from 8 am to 5 pm before. But after this issue, he would start crying when I left home even for an hour to go to the campus. He would say \u201cDon\u2019t go anywhere because when you go, you don\u2019t come back for a long time.\u201d and things like that. The night I got arrested, I was working on my English exam, so he slept next to his father. After what happened he stopped sleeping beside his dad for months because he thought that would result in me leaving the house again. My sister\u2019s kids were affected by this process more gravely, but as I was under arrest for only eight days, I think my son was in a better place by comparison. Still, for a kid, eight days might be too much, so maybe we will see the effects on him more in the future, as he doesn\u2019t express his feelings much. I know that ages 4-6 are a critical period for a child, but there was nothing for us to do at the time. For the future, we hope for the best.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

To put it bluntly, we\u2019ve seen friend from foe. People, especially my colleagues, distanced themselves from me, even though they knew that we were innocent. I am just an ordinary person, I can\u2019t say anything about the coup, I don’t know anything. But for sure there must be something else going on, that is why I was arrested for eight days and dismissed from my government job of 10 years because of an incident that I had no idea about whatsoever. There is a whole other thing going on behind the curtains, no question about that.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

During my questioning by the chief of police at the detainment, he told me \u201cWe don\u2019t say that you all are involved and attempted the coup or carried a gun and used it.\u201d I asked \u201cSo why am I here?\u201d He couldn\u2019t answer me. Everybody knows the answer, but I think they have been holding a grudge against us and hence the attrition treatments. I think and hope this is a temporary procedure, otherwise there will be sad consequences for the future of our people and country. During this time, many qualified educators were dismissed from their jobs. This is very bad for generations of students and our education system. I think we will see the ill effects of these wrongdoings in 8-10 years, because problems in education don\u2019t appear in a short time. Also, what our children have been through and will continue to experience is a whole other worrisome matter.<\/span><\/p>\n

Turkey is affected like us. I think there is no going back in this. It really happened. For instance, if I go back to my job, I won\u2019t talk to my colleagues who distanced themselves from me. Yes, maybe they were mistaken, but I would say they shouldn\u2019t have been so. So I think Turkey is suffering from this as well and this might result in a sociological disintegration in the country. We need common sense after all, but I don\u2019t expect it from our people, not anymore. I was deeply hurt to see people who knew us very well believing the propaganda and then turning their backs on us in just one night. Anybody that I know going through the same thing has this disappointment. And it won\u2019t be easy to recover from. Even if everything goes back to normal, what we have experienced and the illnesses we have developed in the last two years won\u2019t just go away. Our greying hair won\u2019t reverse to black. Getting gray hair is the least significant case. While we criticise the situation, we know the things before and after, so we try to keep our calm. But I don\u2019t think our kids will be understanding and be sympathetic when all the problems and traumas they have been put through are considered. My husband is not dismissed, he is suspended, so we still get two thirds of his salary.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Besides being detained, there was a possibility of arrest and a long stay in prison. During that time, I felt my responsibilities as a mom more than ever. I realized that I should raise my son as an independent person, because I sadly experienced that sometimes we can not be around them, even if we want to. In the course of my detainment, as a woman, initially I felt so weak, but eventually I felt much stronger. One of my relatives once mentioned that there were other coups in the past. And in the aftermath, government employees\u2019 positions were changed or they were sent to other cities, but they were not dismissed. But we were, all of a sudden. It was hard for us but I guess this process would have been even worse if my husband was dismissed from his job. We moved to my father-in-law\u2019s apartment after this.<\/span><\/p>\n

We used to live in a rental apartment. My husband’s family had their tenant move out, so we moved to that apartment. While we were leaving our flat, I couldn\u2019t tell anyone why we were moving. It hurt to know that they wouldn\u2019t have a heart-to-heart talk with me, if I had told them about the situation, although we lived there for six years. I had a good relationship with my neighbors, even though I was busy with my work. For example, if my kid got sick, they would come to our door and ask how he was, whether we needed anything. Still, I was lucky. I had some friends who didn\u2019t turn their backs to me, just my colleagues did. I suppose it is harder for women. I am taking one antidepressant in the morning to relax during daytime and one at night to be able to sleep. I had crying jags for a few months. For instance, I would burst into tears while unloading the dishes. My husband took me to the doctor and I told my story; in September I was dismissed, in February I was arrested, then the doctor asked me what happened in March. I said \u201cNothing of that sort\u201d. It just felt like everything happened all at once. It is that bad.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The doctor changed the medicine, because it didn\u2019t work well. Even then, I still had problems. Taking the pill, I would go to sleep, but then if I woke up during the night, I couldn\u2019t go back. I was always aggressive towards my child. And I guess it was because of this, he didn\u2019t want to stay at home, he wanted to go to my mom’s. I have just been getting better with my son for 6-7 months. It has been two years. Without the medical support, it could have been harder to recover from this situation. My crying jags are gone. The hardest part is the psychological part, I suppose. If people were aware of this oppression and unjust persecution, maybe we wouldn\u2019t have experienced it this gravely. But we have to deal with this alone. There is no one empathetic to our problems whom we can communicate with. And this makes our hearts bleed.<\/span><\/p>\n

My friends told me about a police officer who went to the State of Emergency Office, and said \u201cI don\u2019t want you to give my job back to me, I just want to get back my dignity.\u201d This is all true for us. We are educated people; my husband has a Doctorate degree and I have a Master\u2019s. Sometimes we think of going abroad, but then we hope if it goes back to normal we can find jobs here. What we experience here is being looked down upon in our own country. One time, I told one of my friends if we were to go to another country, we might find some comfort. But she said \u201cYou will be a stranger there.\u201d I said \u201cI am already a stranger here as I am waiting for the police to show up at my door every morning. Can I ever feel more alienated <\/span><\/p>\n

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Bu ses kayd\u0131n\u0131n al\u0131nmas\u0131na ve kullan\u0131lmas\u0131na izin veriyorum. Darbe oldu\u011funda, 15 Temmuz\u2019da, 10 y\u0131ll\u0131k devlet memuruydum. Darbeden 20 g\u00fcn sonra kadar a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa al\u0131nd\u0131m. \u0130lk kararnameyle ihra\u00e7 edildim. \u0130hra\u00e7 sebebim eski sendika \u00fcyeli\u011fiydi. \u00c7\u0131k\u0131p sonras\u0131nda ba\u015fka bir sendikaya \u00fcye olmama ra\u011fmen daha \u00f6nceki sendika \u00fcyeli\u011fim gerek\u00e7e g\u00f6sterilerek (ihrac edildim), tabi bu bana s\u00f6ylenmedi, bunu bir sene kadar sonra g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u00f6\u011frendim. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te tabii ki hi\u00e7 bir \u015fekilde bilmiyorduk neyle su\u00e7land\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, neyden dolay\u0131 b\u00f6yle bir \u015feyle kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bilmiyorduk. Saygin insanlarken bir anda terorist gorulmeleri..\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

On senelik devlet memuriyetim boyunca devletin bir i\u011fnesini bile kullanmad\u0131m, eve getirmedim. Ama birden bire ter\u00f6rist yaftas\u0131yla damgaland\u0131k tabi bu bizim i\u00e7in normal de\u011fildi.\u00a0 Karakolun bile \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7memi\u015f insanlar i\u00e7in a\u011f\u0131r s\u00fcre\u00e7.. En az\u0131ndan \u00fczerimizdeki bu kara lekenin kald\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi olur, yani in\u015fallah ilerleyen d\u00f6nemlerde olacakt\u0131r muhakkak.\u00a0 Bizim i\u00e7in \u00f6nemli olan tabi itibar\u0131m\u0131z, sayg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. Hem ailemiz olarak hem \u00e7evremizde bilinen, kendi sosyal \u00e7evrelerimizde olsun bilinen, tan\u0131nan insanlard\u0131k, \u00f6rnek g\u00f6sterilen, sevilen insanlard\u0131k. Bir anda \u201cbunlar ter\u00f6ristmi\u015f\u201d tabii ki \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r bir \u015fey.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

1 Eyl\u00fcl\u2019de ihra\u00e7 oldum gece yay\u0131nland\u0131 kararname, zaten tahmin etti\u011fimiz i\u00e7in bekliyorduk.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gece ihra\u00e7 oldu\u011fumda ismimi listede g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde balkona \u00e7\u0131kay\u0131m dedim hava alay\u0131m biraz, nefes alamad\u0131m. E\u015fim geldi arkamdan kollar\u0131mdan tuttu, atlar\u0131m diye korktu herhalde, yani d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sonu de\u011fil, hayat\u0131n sonu de\u011fil onun bilincindeyiz. Beni daha sonra daha fazla etkileyen o d\u00f6nemde y\u00fcksek lisans yap\u0131yordum. \u0130kinci g\u00fcn\u00fc tekrar bir karar yay\u0131nland\u0131, diplomalar\u0131 iptal ediyoruz diye, neyse ki diplomalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 degil calisma izinlerini iptal ettiler. Tabi hi\u00e7bir yerde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fam\u0131yorsun ama diplomalar iptal edilmis olsaydi yuksek lisansi yarim birakmak zorunda kalacaktim. Lisans\u0131 da evli iken bebekle birlikte okudum, ger\u00e7ekten \u00e7ok zorland\u0131m, ard\u0131ndan y\u00fcksek lisansa girdim ders d\u00f6nemim bitmi\u015fti, tez d\u00f6nemime ge\u00e7mi\u015ftim. Daha sonra onun \u00e7\u00f6p olmas\u0131 beni daha fazla etkileyecekti. \u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bunun \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funun heralde fark\u0131na var\u0131ld\u0131 ve lisans diplomalar\u0131m\u0131z iptal edilmedi. Bu s\u0131rada y\u00fcksek lisans\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bitirebildim ama i\u015fe d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f i\u00e7in hala bekliyoruz. Tabi bu arada 5 tane mahkemem g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc, aralar\u0131nda 3-4 ay olmak kayd\u0131yla, sekiz g\u00fcn g\u00f6zalt\u0131nda kald\u0131m.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Sadece bir ge\u00e7mi\u015f sendika \u00fcyeli\u011fi ki T\u00fcrkiye Cumhuriyeti yasalar\u0131na g\u00f6re sendika anayasal bir hak ve bu devletin kurmu\u015f oldu\u011fu bir sendika, kald\u0131 ki Milli E\u011fitim\u2019de \u015f\u00f6yle bir \u015fey de var bir sendikaya \u00fcye oluyoruz her ay aidat \u00f6d\u00fcyoruz \u00fc\u00e7 ayda bir bu aidat\u0131n primini bize geri veriyor, sendika aidat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 devlet yat\u0131rm\u0131\u015f oluyor. Aidat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 devlet yat\u0131r\u0131yor ama bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 oldu\u011funda g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nan biz oluyoruz. Yani bu da ilgin\u00e7. Zaten bu devletin bize verdi\u011fi bir yasal hak sendika. Kald\u0131 ki darbeden bir y\u0131l \u00f6nce kadar bu sendikadan ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve ba\u015fka sendikaya ge\u00e7mi\u015fim ama herhalde bir \u015fekilde su\u00e7lu g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcyor demek ki. Allah b\u00fct\u00fcn masumlar\u0131 kurtars\u0131n in\u015fallah bir an \u00f6nce.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Be\u015f mahkeme g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc. Be\u015f mahkemenin sonunda Haziran\u2019\u0131n 19\u2019unda beraat ettim. \u015eu anda da OHAL komisyonuna kald\u0131. OHAL komisyonu ise iade edecek mi etmeyecek mi bilmiyoruz. Beraat alan baz\u0131 arkada\u015flar i\u015fe iade edilmedi, reddine diye karar verildi. Bilmiyoruz di\u015fimizle, t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyleri tekrar geri alabilecek miyiz bilmiyoruz; bekliyoruz yani bu \u015fekilde\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Eve geldiler kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7ald\u0131lar ondan sonra. G\u00f6zalt\u0131 s\u00fcrecinden biraz bahsedeyim. Zaten her g\u00fcn kap\u0131m\u0131za polis gelme endi\u015fesiyle yat\u0131yorduk gece.<\/span> Sabah 6:30 gibi polisler geldiler, 3-4 tane ter\u00f6rle m\u00fccadele polisi. Hani b\u00f6yle televizyonlarda hep g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck PKK\u2019yla falan onlara kar\u015f\u0131 yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f operasyonlar, tabi bunlar\u0131n ger\u00e7e\u011fini ya\u015famak \u00e7ok ac\u0131 verici, \u00f6zellikle de bizim gibi vatan\u0131na milletine ba\u011fl\u0131, d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn insanlar i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00e7ok zor… Herhalde r\u00fcyam\u0131zda g\u00f6rsek inanmayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z durumlar\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131k ve tabi evin tamam\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131lar, alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcne getirdiler.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ben 21 \u015eubat\u2019ta g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131m 2017\u2019de, bir sene ge\u00e7mi\u015f aradan darbenin \u00fczerine. Hatta orada polislere dedim evi ar\u0131yorlar hani \u00fcst\u00fcnden bir sene ge\u00e7mi\u015f ne bulmay\u0131 umuyorsunuz…\u00a0 \u201cProsed\u00fcr abla.\u201d dedi. Yani polisler de bunun siyasi bir durum oldu\u011funun bilincinde gayet, polislerden k\u00f6t\u00fc muamele g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00f6yleyemem, olay\u0131n kendisi k\u00f6t\u00fc muamele ba\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na zaten. Ne kadar iyi davran\u0131rlarsa davrans\u0131nlar evet elimi kelep\u00e7elemediler ama sonu\u00e7ta polis e\u015fli\u011finde evden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Y\u0131llard\u0131r oturdu\u011fum mahallede polis e\u015fli\u011finde evden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, polis arabas\u0131na bindim, g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcm. Mahallenin muhtar\u0131 e\u015fime, \u201cGe\u00e7en hafta da \u00f6b\u00fcr sokaktan birini ald\u0131lar g\u00f6z alt\u0131na, bir haftada b\u0131rak\u0131rlar, \u00fcz\u00fclme.\u201d demi\u015f.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ondan sonra tabi \u00e7ocu\u011fumu evde b\u0131rakt\u0131m normalde y\u00fcksek lisans yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in s\u0131k s\u0131k \u00fcniversiteye gidip geliyordum, \u00e7ocu\u011fuma \u00f6nceki ak\u015fam diyordum. \u00c7ocu\u011fum 4 bu\u00e7uk ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131 g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131mda. \u201cYar\u0131n olmayaca\u011f\u0131m, sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda babanla olursun.\u201d, anl\u0131yordu \u00e7ocuk ama birden uyan\u0131p da anne olmay\u0131nca aram\u0131\u015f tabi \u201cAnnem nerede?\u201d demi\u015f. Ablam gelmi\u015f o s\u0131rada, e\u015fim kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131yormu\u015f \u00e7ocu\u011fa. \u201cAnnen yok, herhalde hastaneye gitmi\u015f.\u201d falan demi\u015f ablam, b\u00fct\u00fcn odalar\u0131 aram\u0131\u015f \u201cGer\u00e7ekten yokmu\u015f.\u201d demi\u015f. Normalde benim o\u011flum annemlerle de \u00e7ok yak\u0131n oturdu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in s\u00fcrekli gider gelir, orada da kal\u0131r g\u00fcnlerce, aramaz \u00e7ok fazla beni ama o s\u00fcre\u00e7te herhalde \u00e7ocuk da gerginli\u011fin, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn fark\u0131nda, durmak istememi\u015f annemlerde. Habire benim her \u015feyimi annem yapt\u0131rs\u0131n demi\u015f.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ben geldi\u011fimde de ilk ba\u015fta bana kar\u015f\u0131da s\u0131cak davranmad\u0131. Ben sar\u0131ld\u0131m \u201cO\u011flum isteyerek gitmedim, beni g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler.\u201d dedim. Onun \u00fczerine sar\u0131ld\u0131, \u00f6pt\u00fc. \u201cNiye bu kadar uzun kald\u0131n?\u201d falan dedi, bunu ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7ocuk 4 bu\u00e7uk ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Daha sonra ablam tutukland\u0131, dokuz ay kadar, onun \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na da benim o\u011fluma da \u201cAnnen hastanede.\u201d dedik. Daha sonra benim eltim do\u011fum yapt\u0131, hastaneye gittik, \u00e7ocuk bana soruyor, \u201cAnne, yengem de teyzem gibi mi hasta normal mi hasta?\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuk onun farkl\u0131 bir \u015fey oldu\u011funun, bizim bir \u015feyleri gizledi\u011fimizin bilincinde yani. Benim orada tek endi\u015fem g\u00f6zalt\u0131ndayken tutuklan\u0131rsam \u00e7ocu\u011fum ne olacak? Ne kadar kal\u0131r\u0131m?\u00a0 \u00c7ocu\u011fum ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f olur \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman? Hani uzun bir ceza al\u0131rsam bunu nas\u0131l ifade ederim \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc her t\u00fcrl\u00fc e\u011fitimci oldu\u011fumuz i\u00e7in a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yukar\u0131 en az travma yaratacak \u015fekilde olmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyoruz. Mesela \u201cOrada \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor.\u201d desek ayr\u0131 bir travma, paray\u0131 bize tercih etti. \u201cHastanede.\u201d desek hasta m\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor mu, i\u011fne mi vuruluyor, \u00e7ok mu k\u00f6t\u00fc ayr\u0131 bir travma… Her t\u00fcrl\u00fc, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 da biz b\u00fcy\u00fckleri de bu travmadan kurtarabilmenin herhangi bir yolu yok herhalde. Ge\u00e7en ablama s\u00f6yledim bu yaray\u0131 ald\u0131k art\u0131k herhalde hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bizi geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcrmez, eski halimize gelemeyiz…\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

G\u00f6z alt\u0131 s\u00fcreci orada polislere dedik \u201cNas\u0131l olacak, \u015fimdi buradan nereye gidece\u011fiz, ne \u015fekilde olacak?\u201d Polis de devaml\u0131 adli su\u00e7lularla muhatap oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in s\u00fcrekli onlar da oran\u0131n gediklisi diyeyim, girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in (biliyor) b\u00fcrokratik i\u015fleyi\u015fi. Biz hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyoruz \u015f\u00f6yle mi olacak, b\u00f6yle mi olacak, polis g\u00fcl\u00fcyor nas\u0131l bilmiyorsunuz. Orada s\u00f6yledim, \u201cAbi biz karakolun \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7memi\u015f insanlar\u0131z, mazur g\u00f6r\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131klay\u0131n bize.\u201d dedim. Onlar\u0131n tav\u0131r ve davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 da iyiydi ama sonu\u00e7ta g\u00fcne\u015f g\u00f6rmeyen kapal\u0131 bir odadas\u0131n, parmakl\u0131klar\u0131n ard\u0131ndas\u0131n. Bu psikoloji bile insana yetiyor. S\u00fcrekli ayd\u0131nl\u0131ktas\u0131n, gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz fark edemiyorsun, namaz saatlerini polislere sorup \u00f6\u011freniyoruz, o \u015fekilde. Baz\u0131 yerlerde daha farkl\u0131 muameleler olmu\u015f X sehri \u00f6zelinde ama ben \u00f6yle bir muamele g\u00f6rmedim. Tabi \u00e7ay falan yok -onlar l\u00fckse giriyormu\u015f- o y\u00fczden sadece su var, bir de yemeklerin yan\u0131nda verirlerse i\u00e7ecek. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan ailemiz gelirse su ald\u0131r\u0131yoruz, i\u00e7erinin suyu i\u00e7ilmiyor. Oralar\u0131 temizledik, ya\u015fan\u0131labilir bir hale getirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k bir hafta da kalsak. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sonu\u00e7ta devlet mal\u0131 dedik, hi\u00e7 zarar vermemek laz\u0131m.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Hastanede demi\u015fler benim oldu\u011fum s\u00fcre\u00e7te, keyfi bir \u015fekilde gitmedi\u011fimi, \u00e7ok hasta oldu\u011fumu bu \u015fekilde a\u00e7\u0131klad\u0131m. \u201cO y\u00fczden, yoksa sana ak\u015famdan s\u00f6ylerdim hastaneye gidece\u011fimi.\u201d dedim. Sonras\u0131nda \u00e7ocu\u011fum(la) sanki tek v\u00fccut bir insanm\u0131\u015f\u0131z gibi ya\u015fad\u0131k, hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde ayr\u0131lm\u0131yordu. Ondan \u00f6nce \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00f6nemde ya\u015f\u0131 daha k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen ben 8-5 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum ama ona tahamm\u00fcl edebilen \u00e7ocuk bir saatlik \u00fcniversiteye gitsem a\u011fl\u0131yordu s\u00fcrekli. \u201cGitme sen gittikten sonra saatlerce, g\u00fcnlerce gelmiyorsun.\u201d\u00a0 vs babas\u0131yla uyumu\u015ftu ben g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131naca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6ncesinde, babas\u0131yla erken uyumu\u015ftu, ben ingilizce s\u0131nav\u0131na haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordum, ders \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Ondan sonra aylarca babas\u0131yla uyumad\u0131. Babamla uyudu\u011fum zaman sen ikinci g\u00fcn olmuyorsun diye dusundu ama tabi sekiz g\u00fcn kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00e7ok belki kal\u0131c\u0131 bir travma olmad\u0131. Ablam\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 daha yo\u011fun bir \u015fekilde ya\u015fad\u0131lar onu ama bizde o kadar -hamdolsun- \u00e7ok olmad\u0131 bir hafta kadar oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in, tabi yani ya\u015fayan bilir. Benim \u00e7ocu\u011fum biraz ketum oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in \u00e7ok fazla duygular\u0131n\u0131 d\u0131\u015fa vuran bir \u00e7ocuk de\u011fil, yani o y\u00fczden belki varsa da ilerde ortaya \u00e7\u0131kacakt\u0131r muhakkak bu ya\u015fta olan. 4-6 ya\u015f aras\u0131 zaten kritik d\u00f6nem, hay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131 olsun, yapabilece\u011fimiz bir \u015fey de yoktu.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dostumuzu d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck hani do\u011fruyu s\u00f6ylemek gerekirse \u00f6zellikle i\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131m, insanlar ne kadar hak verseler de, senin masum oldu\u011funu su\u00e7suz oldu\u011funu bilseler de bir uzakla\u015fma i\u00e7ine girdiler. Yani o gece olanlar konusunda tabi bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemem sonu\u00e7ta halktan bir insan\u0131m ben, bir bilgim yok ama muhakkak farkl\u0131 \u015feyler oldu\u011fu belli i\u015fin i\u00e7inde. Yoksa ben hi\u00e7 haberim olmayan bir \u015feyden dolay\u0131 niye sekiz g\u00fcn g\u00f6zalt\u0131nda kald\u0131m, niye on senelik memuriyetimden at\u0131ld\u0131m. \u00c7ok ba\u015fka \u015feyler oldu\u011fu muhakkak. Orada g\u00f6zalt\u0131ndayken emniyet m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc sorgulama yap\u0131yordu bana \u201cBiz size demiyoruz ki herkes darbeye kalk\u0131\u015ft\u0131, herkes darbeyle ili\u015fkilli, herkes eline silah ald\u0131 da gitti demiyoruz.\u201d dedi. Ben de durdum\u00a0 \u201cPeki ne s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorsunuz? Niye o zaman buraday\u0131m? B\u00f6yle bir \u015feyle ilgisi yoksa neden buraday\u0131m?\u201d dedim. Cevap veremedi tabi bunun sorumlusunun biz olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z herkes\u00e7e biliniyor ama herhalde bir y\u0131pratma, bir \u015fekilde bu insanlara kar\u015f\u0131 olan kinin bize kar\u015f\u0131 bir tezah\u00fcr\u00fc oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ge\u00e7ici bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum in\u015fallah \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00fclke, millet ad\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc sonu\u00e7lar do\u011furur. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te kaliteli ne kadar e\u011fitimci varsa ihra\u00e7 oldu. Memleketin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131na oluyor olan, e\u011fitimdeki s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar da \u00f6yle hemen bir senede belli olacak \u015feyler de\u011fil. 8-10 sene ge\u00e7mesi laz\u0131m ki bir neslin kayboldu\u011fu, bir neslin ezildi\u011fi g\u00f6r\u00fcls\u00fcn, anla\u015f\u0131ls\u0131n. Bizim \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 ve ya\u015fayacaklar\u0131 da apayr\u0131, yani onlar da ayr\u0131 bir \u015fey..<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Bizim ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi bu yaray\u0131 T\u00fcrkiye de ald\u0131. Art\u0131k bundan geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyorum. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n aras\u0131na art\u0131k bir kere girdi. Mesela ben i\u015fe geri d\u00f6nsem bana mesafe koyan insanlarla bir daha g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmem, selamla\u015fmam. Evet belki onlar da yan\u0131ld\u0131lar ama yan\u0131lmasalard\u0131 derim ben de o durumda. Ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde T\u00fcrkiye de o yaray\u0131 ald\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Art\u0131k farkl\u0131 bir \u015fey haline gelir yani bu sosyolojik bir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmeye yol a\u00e7abilir ama tabi sa\u011fduyu laz\u0131m ama bu saatten sonra ben \u00e7ok sa\u011fduyu da beklemiyorum insan\u0131m\u0131zdan. Demek ki bildi\u011fi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar farkl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f diye bir gecede, bir kalemde bildikleri halde silebildiler, o durumda da bende bu k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k oldu, tabi \u00e7evremdeki benim durumumu ya\u015fayan herkeste ayn\u0131 k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k var. Bu da \u00f6yle kolay kolay ge\u00e7ebilecek bir \u015fey de\u011fil. Her \u015fey yerine gelse, d\u00fczelse bile ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyler iki senede edindi\u011fimiz hastal\u0131klar ge\u00e7meyecek, beyazlayan sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z siyahlamayacak en basiti. Sa\u00e7 beyazlamas\u0131 nedir ki en basit olan \u015fey. B\u00f6yle \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131zla kalan s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar, travmalar tabi bunlar belki bizden \u00e7ok daha fazla (cocuklarimizda). Belki biz bunlar\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z i\u00e7in, \u00f6ncesini sonras\u0131n\u0131 bildi\u011fimiz i\u00e7in biraz daha merhametli oluruz ama bizim \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7ok da merhametli olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyorum. E\u015fim ihra\u00e7 olmad\u0131, e\u015fim i\u015finden uzakla\u015ft\u0131rma ald\u0131; hala maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7te ikisini al\u0131yoruz bu \u015fekilde.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

(\u00c7ocu\u011fumla ilgili) ondan ayr\u0131 kalma ihtimali.. Sekiz g\u00fcn zaten g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcndeki ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n haricinde bir de tutuklama ihtimali vard\u0131 tabi o s\u00fcre\u00e7te bir anne olarak sorumlulu\u011fumu daha fazla fark ettim. S\u00f6yle diyeyim \u00e7ocu\u011fumu benden (zaten ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z bir \u00e7ocuk) daha fazla ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z yeti\u015ftirmem gerekiyormu\u015f. Kendi iste\u011fi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda da insan \u00e7ocu\u011funun yan\u0131nda olamayabiliyormu\u015f. O y\u00fczden \u00e7ok daha kendi aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerinde durmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flamak gerekiyormu\u015f, \u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Bir kad\u0131n olarak da daha g\u00f6zalt\u0131 s\u00fcrecinde biraz daha g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz hissettim ama sonras\u0131nda daha g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc hissettim kendimi. Tabii ki bu \u00e7ok daha zordu bizim i\u00e7in, kad\u0131nlar i\u00e7in. Ama bir akrabam\u0131z demi\u015fti \u201cDaha \u00f6nce de oluyordu darbeler ama memurlar s\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyordu en fazla.\u201d demi\u015fti. Biz birdenbire ihra\u00e7 edildik. Bizim i\u00e7in tabi zorlay\u0131c\u0131 oldu, bilmiyorum, e\u015fim ihra\u00e7 olsayd\u0131 belki bunu daha a\u011f\u0131r bir \u015fekilde ya\u015fard\u0131k. Ama i\u015fte evi ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131k, mesela kay\u0131npederimgilin apartman\u0131na ge\u00e7tik.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Normalde kiradayd\u0131k, onlar kirac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar, biz oraya ge\u00e7tik. Ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m apartmanda kom\u015fular\u0131mla vedala\u015f\u0131rken hi\u00e7birine s\u00f6yleyemedim b\u00f6yle bir durumdan dolay\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yoruz. Hani bu ac\u0131 vericiydi insanlar\u0131n senin derdinle dertlenmeyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek onlarla payla\u015fmamak ki ben o apartmanda alt\u0131 sene oturmu\u015ftum. Kom\u015fular\u0131mla iyi k\u00f6t\u00fc \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmama ra\u011fmen bir muhabbetimiz vard\u0131. Belki \u00e7ocu\u011fum hasta oldu\u011funda gece kap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7alarlard\u0131. \u00c7ocuk nas\u0131l oldu ya da hastaneye gidelim mi diye ama onlar\u0131n bile bu s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131y\u0131 anlamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp anlatam\u0131yor olmak ya da kendi akraba \u00e7evremize ya da akraba, arkada\u015f \u00e7evremize. \u015eansl\u0131y\u0131m ki benim iyi bir arkada\u015f \u00e7evrem vard\u0131, hi\u00e7biri bana s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nmediler i\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n haricinde. Ama a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 tabi zor, kad\u0131n f\u0131trat\u0131 i\u00e7in daha zor… Sabah ayr\u0131 bir antidepresan, ak\u015fam ayr\u0131 bir antidepresan kullan\u0131yorum. Sabah olan\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc daha rahat ve relax ge\u00e7irebilmek i\u00e7in, gece olan\u0131 uykuya dalabilmek i\u00e7in. Uyku problemi ya\u015f\u0131yorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaten m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil. Sonras\u0131nda birka\u00e7 ay i\u00e7erisinde s\u00fcrekli bir a\u011flama krizleri.. Mesela bula\u015f\u0131k makinas\u0131ndaki temizleri bo\u015falt\u0131yorum birden bire a\u011flamaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum. E\u015fim \u201cBu normal bir psikoloji de\u011fil, kalk bir doktora gidelim, sen toparlayamayacaks\u0131n b\u00f6yle.\u201d dedi. Sonra gittim doktora durumu anlatt\u0131m b\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle dedim bu i\u015f, doktor da \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ben Eyl\u00fcl\u2019de ihra\u00e7 oldum, \u015eubat’ta g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131m. \u201cMart\u2019ta ne oldu?\u201d dedi doktor. \u201d Martta bir \u015fey olmad\u0131.\u201d dedim. \u201cSanki her ay bir \u015fey olmu\u015f gibi\u201d, \u201cEvet, do\u011fru.\u201d dedim. Sirk\u00fclasyonu yo\u011fun bir s\u00fcre\u00e7\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00d6yle ba\u015flad\u0131m daha sonra \u00e7ok rand\u0131man alamad\u0131m, doktor tekrar ila\u00e7lar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fti ilaca ra\u011fmen uykuya dalmada problem ya\u015f\u0131yordum. Ya da mesela gece ilac\u0131 almama ra\u011fmen uykuya dal\u0131yordum ama tekrardan gece uyan\u0131nca tekrar uykuya dalam\u0131yordum. \u00c7ocu\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcrekli agresiftim. Sonraki s\u00fcre\u00e7te \u00e7ocuk art\u0131k \u00e7ok evde durmak istemedi s\u00fcrekli annemlere gelmek istedi benim gerginli\u011fimden dolay\u0131 herhalde. Daha \u015furada 6-7 aydan beri toparland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissediyorum \u00e7ocu\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131. 2 sene ge\u00e7ti \u00fczerinden. \u0130la\u00e7lar olmasayd\u0131 zaten bu s\u00fcreyi ge\u00e7irmek zordu, a\u011flama krizleri kesildi. En a\u011f\u0131r\u0131 da psikolojik y\u00f6n\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131. E\u011fer bunun bir zul\u00fcm oldu\u011funu herkes kabul etseydi toplumda kabul g\u00f6ren bir \u015fey olsa, herkes derdimizle dertlenseydi belki bunu bu kadar a\u011f\u0131r ya\u015fam\u0131yor olurduk. Ama bunu kendi i\u00e7imizde ya\u015famak zorunday\u0131z. Dertle\u015febilece\u011fimiz evet sen de hakl\u0131s\u0131n, sen de \u00e7ok \u00e7ekiyorsun diyebilece\u011fimiz birisi yok bize. Bu bizi \u00e7ok yoruyor, y\u0131prat\u0131yor. Ge\u00e7en arkada\u015f\u0131n biri anlat\u0131yor OHAL b\u00fcrosuna (bir polis) gitmi\u015f demi\u015f (ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z psikoloji aynen bu) \u201dBen sizin i\u015finizi geri istemiyorum, bana itibar\u0131m\u0131 geri verin.\u201d Ger\u00e7ekten ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z tam olarak bu. Donan\u0131ml\u0131 insanlar\u0131z, e\u015fim doktora mezunu, ben y\u00fcksek lisans mezunuyum. Bir \u015fekilde yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131na da gitsek, yar\u0131n bir g\u00fcn her \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fse i\u015f bulabiliriz diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz ama bu ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ac\u0131lar kendi vatan\u0131nda hor g\u00f6r\u00fclmek… Bir defa bir arkada\u015fa demi\u015ftim \u201cYurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131na gitsek rahat ederiz.\u201d, o da \u201cYabanc\u0131s\u0131n orada.\u201d dedi. Dedim \u201cBurada da yabanc\u0131y\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc her sabah kap\u0131ma polis bekliyorum. Daha ne kadar kendimi gurbette hissedebilirim ki?\u201d<\/span>
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