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Story of a woman who was dismissed and who had to discontinue her education due to safety concerns. When she and her husband decided to flee Turkey through Evros River, they told their little daughter that they would show up in the Survivor show and pass through challenges. When they saw their daughter getting so excited and happy about being on a show, they thought they did the right thing by not sharing the bitter truth. It was only until the moment that she had figured out she was not on a show but indeed escaping from something.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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I\u2019m a mother of two\u2026 I don\u2019 t know where to start. I have two children. Before, in Turkey I studied Industrial Engineering and my husband was a Civil Engineer. We had a nice life there. My involvement with the Hizmet goes back to middle school as I attended one of their schools. I am a graduate from their schools and since then I haven\u2019t lost contact with Hizmet people, all the way through my university years. Later on, I worked at Hizmet institutes and that\u2019s how I met my husband. Everything was very nice, Hizmet allowed us to be a part of an atmosphere we likely couldn\u2019t find anywhere else. The individuals within the Hizmet movement that we met were truly all very generous, friendly, and altruistic. They helped us and guided us in the things we aspired to do. Up until 2013, I can really say that within society these people were all distinguished. In the past, one of the main misconceptions in Turkey was that a person cannot be religious and educated at the same time. Spirituality and the struggle to live one\u2019s religion was seen as an impediment to the person\u2019s education in science.<\/span><\/p>\n

My opinion is that Hizmet disproved this biased conception. There were actual instances of individuals praying, for example a doctor who prayed and wanted to live his life according to Islam. This caused a lot of admiration from society, from those who were religious and those who weren\u2019t as well. A very interesting change of events was coming about\u2026 In 2013 these people who were distinguished and admired within society were starting to be betrayed, workplaces were passed into other hands, and there was pressure to appoint trustees to several businesses. Government officials were slowly dismissed or suspended from their duties. All of these activities were some sort of defamation on the Hizmet movement. The people who were distinctly admired were now experiencing restrictions within their lives. Society watched what was happening in astonishment. One of the most important foundations of Turkey\u2019s education system were private tutoring centers that helped prepare students for high school and college admissions. While tutoring centers founded by Hizmet members were very well-known, there was a decision to shut down tutoring centers all over the country. Of course, all of these things were a drop in the ocean compared to what is happening now. But this is how it started.\u00a0 This was when we as a group began to have difficulty expressing ourselves and making our voices heard. It didn\u2019t start in 2015 – prior years were preparation for future difficulties. We had two interesting years. Back then I only had one child, my daughter.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

On the 24th of June 2015, my son was born. Approximately one year later, on July 15th 2016, the event occured. In that period I was still on leave, and my son was one year old. My maternity leave coincided with the Ramadan holiday, so I went back to my hometown to visit my parents. I had no idea about the events, that night everyone went to bed quite early. That night everyone first heard the events on television around 10 PM. Somehow that day, we all went to bed very early. But when the muezzin of the local mosque started reciting \u201cSalah\u201d ( Salah is a Muslim prayer usually recited from minarets in special occasions such as funderals.), we woke up. We were very scared. My parents and my two sisters were at home. We were wondering what was going on, as the muezzin kept on announcing prayers as well as messages about being loyal to our homeland. He read those prayers numerous times at 2-3AM, we even wondered if a muezzin who had gone insane had taken to the minaret. During the disturbance, my mother suggested we turn on the TV and see if there really had been an incident. We turned the TV on to see that there had been some sort of an attempted coup. We didn\u2019t understand what sort of a coup this was, as people were talking, and giving statements while they were smiling, they were recounting the events by saying that it had been a good event for Turkey, we first-handedly heard such unbelievable statements.<\/span><\/p>\n

Once the events were all over the news, we were so scared. I hadn\u2019t seen anything like this in my life.\u00a0 I want to express what my mother told me; she is 70 years old and didn\u2019t even go to elementary school.\u00a0 She can\u2019t read, but she has lots of life experience. She said she had lived through several coups in Turkey within her lifetime, but as we were watching the news that very night she said she\u2019d never seen a coup like that in her life. She was no coup expert nor does she have any education, yet even she found this situation odd. What I mean is, it really isn\u2019t hard to see through all of the headlines, this was some sort of fake tactical maneuver, and it doesn\u2019t take much effort at all to realize this. It was all quite tragicomic, as there were so many innocent lives that were lost (that night). We didn\u2019t have a chance to learn the truth as we were totally locked in the following days. We didn\u2019t know what we could do, the very next morning there were numerous lists that came out through judges, public prosecutors, and other upper level lawmakers with apparent names of the people who were involved. It\u2019s not possible to come up with, I don\u2019t know, about 2000-3000 names over the course of a couple of hours. All these names that were given are all being brought to court and it isn\u2019t clear how many years they will be given. It\u2019s as if everything had already been ready, almost as if they were just waiting for the coup to take action. And that itself was scary, no one really knew what to do. At the time my husband wasn\u2019t beside me, he was working. I called him and told him we were all so shocked and that they were blaming us for putting up the coup, and that the government had apparently successfully halted it. It was so scary, everything about it was scary.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

So all of the social outcasting and ostracism that had begun in 2013 was quite clearly turning into people readily giving out names to the government of those who had any sort of tie with Hizmet. Neighbors, mothers, fathers, families and siblings were fighting each other tooth and nail. We heard of so many incidents where people would give names solely so that the person would be taken from their job only to have their own family member be put into that position. Instead of feeling bad about someone losing their job, there were people happy about it, seeing it as an opportunity for themselves. The fact is that losing your job was honestly not even the worst of it. I\u2019m going to give an example from my life but of course there are others who have it worse. I wasn\u2019t working for the government, I was an engineer at a private company and I was dismissed. My husband\u2019s workplace was shut down immediately by a governmental decree (In Turkish: \u201cKanun hukmunde kararname (KHK)\u201d. After the coup attempt there were frequent governmental decrees listing the names of government employees to be dismissed or suspended and the institutes to be shut down.)<\/span><\/p>\n

Making a plan on what we would be doing was important for us although it seemed trivial. We had just moved, although we weren\u2019t aware we had to move again. My daughter was going to start first grade that year, yet she was still assigned the old school of our old address. Thank God, we found a house nearby and decided to move there so my daughter would still be going to that school. My husband didn\u2019t stay with us for a while, in case he would be taken into custody. Nothing was really clear, people were filing complaints and the police were ordering arrests left and right. Random people would come out and say this person is involved with such and such group. They would describe those groups with the f-word <\/span>(<\/span>FETO, Fethullahci Teror Orgutu in Turkish, meaning Gulenist Terror Organization<\/span><\/i>)<\/span> that I don\u2019t want to ever use. Individuals would file these complaints in hopes of trying to help the government for their own selfish benefit, like they were expecting something in return, they attacked people in this manner\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

We moved as quickly as we could. My husband went into hiding and didn\u2019t come for a while just to be safe. We were afraid that they would track our location through my daughter\u2019s school. When I brought my daughter to school in the mornings, I would be very cautious. I can never forget this, I would sometimes track license plates just to make sure no one was following me and to see if there were any vehicles from my hometown. I was worried that they would take me into custody. I was in this panic mode for about 4 months. Later on I found out that my colleagues with whom I\u2019d worked with for several years had been taken from their homes. After about 4 months, near the start of 2017, we were getting very paranoid; everyone was being taken. My husband and daughter were very stressed out. We brought my daughter to school every day, we were scared that our address would soon be discovered. So, we finally decided to sit down and talk with our daughter, we wanted to tell her what we were going through in the simplest way possible. We told her there had been a misunderstanding and that there were people who thought that her father had done something wrong and that we needed to fix that. And we told her that if we can\u2019t fix it and they come before that there could be a situation of her dad or me being taken away. We tried to explain it in the best way for her, as she was only 6 and a half years old. How much would a child at that young age really understand about the current situation? So I asked my daughter if she wanted to continue going to school or to stay at home, as we were scared our address would be uncovered through her school.<\/span><\/p>\n

My daughter said she really wanted to go to school. While I worked, my daughter would go to daycare where she would be playing all day.\u00a0 She was really interested in learning. She had learned to read and write and was enjoying school very much. I told her she would need to stop going to school or go to her grandmother\u2019s (my husband\u2019s mother), which was 500 km away. She accepted going to her grandmother\u2019s.\u00a0 She cried a little at first, but then she said she would go so we could be safe. These hard times caused a lot of stress for children too, they had to become mature all of a sudden. I took her to her grandmother, but going through that wasn\u2019t as easy as talking about it. God bless her grandmother, she was very educated and willing to have my daughter stay with her. We spoke with my daughter over the phone every night, but not from our phones, as there could be an address located from the internet. We would go to cafes nearby. My daughter was still at an age where she needed her parents, she was still young. She begged us to be with her on April 23rd at a school performance. She was really upset and cried when we couldn\u2019t make it, she had really wanted us to come.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My daughter\u2019s birthday is May 1st. We really wanted to make it in time for that. We did, we took the chance. They were able to check the law-enforcement database to see if we were wanted for any crimes. Many people were taken into custody after random checks on roads (<\/span>they stop cars and check their IDs<\/span><\/i>), but we took our chances and made our way to my mother-in-law\u2019s house.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

We stayed there for about a week. When we were leaving my daughter cried much more than I had expected. Of course she loves her grandmother, she had stayed there before when she was much younger but now she was staying there for a very extensive period of time. She was also going to first grade, she needed attention. She wanted to share things with me, but I couldn\u2019t be there for her. All of the children who are going through similar things with their families are very young to be aware of the problem to be exact, but they can sense that something very serious is going on. My son was much younger, so he needed me to care for him. He was only one and a half years old. It was so difficult for me to leave my daughter like that. Until my daughter went to her grandmother’s, I always gave both of them so much attention. It was different for her, as she had a new sibling at home, she had to share her mother and father who had previously been only hers. But now we told her she needed to stay at her grandmother\u2019s and that her brother would stay with us. It was just heartbreaking. I was so sad. I wondered if she would think that we had left her on purpose. No matter how much we told her about the situation, she was still a child, and it was hard for her to understand…<\/span><\/p>\n

It was such a hard time for me to be separated from my child. From tIme to time, my daughter now tells me she used to cry every single night. I get sad, but now I say to myself, there is nothing that could be done, now being together as a family is the biggest blessing and luxury, and we feel grateful.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Everyone was going through a difficult time.\u00a0 Some people were in jail, others were in hiding, some fled to foreign countries, forced to leave. This situation essentially paused all the lives of those who were affected. Imagine that after a fast-paced life where you had goals, dreams and jobs, you were on hold.\u00a0 For example, I was working towards my master\u2019s degree, I had prepared my thesis and was going to present it at the end of the summer near September. Then June 15 happened, and I was left just like that. I couldn\u2019t go back to the university, because the minute you stepped foot on campus, there were lists with names, especially for master\u2019s students like me. They could arrest you before you knew it, they could away your academic goals, the things you wanted to achieve, and just like that you could be left up in the air. Of course, these things are nothing when compared to the reality of many people, but still, all of the things we wanted to achieve were unfairly and emptily put to an end.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

When we first moved, I would limit my communication with neighbors, I was scared that they would be suspicious of us. People would be suspicious of those who seemed too proper, were educated, or were employed as well as religious.\u00a0 Having all of these characteristics alarmed people and led them to inform against such individuals. I have personally been a witness to this. There are so many people who inform against random individuals, which is why we decided to have very limited interaction with any of our neighbors.\u00a0 When we saw any of them, it was just small talk. Even when we had guests over, which rarely happened, we would have them come to our house secretly. Can you imagine how much we limited our lives?\u00a0 We were basically living a social trauma\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

You go from being someone who is respected to someone who is worthless. It shouldn\u2019t be important how people see you, but you live in a community with these people. The way you portray yourself, the way you share your thoughts and ideas with others, even that becomes difficult as you get paranoid about what others may be thinking about you. We used to be so careful about even the way we dressed and\u00a0 the way we spoke with others.\u00a0 Hizmet had a standard and stance that was easily recognizable.<\/span><\/p>\n

Even the way we portray ourselves became a problem. We stopped dressing the way we normally would. I personally lived through this. I prefer skirts to pants, but I have started to wear pants so that people won\u2019t be against us. These worries limited our expression. These were simple effects on our everyday life. There was also fear due to strict governmental oppression. For example, there was the fear of severe treatment under police custody, if one was to be detained. I haven\u2019t experienced this personally, but I have heard of it, and keep hearing accounts from others. For example, just two days ago, my friend went to visit her son in the hospital as he had just gone through a surgery. She shouldn\u2019t have gone, but she is a mother, and her son\u2019s father is in jail. It is so natural for her to want to be there for her son. When she went there, they arrested her and had her in custody for 3 full days of questioning until she was released. She was on probation, and thank God they let her go. It was difficult to be strong for my friend.\u00a0 We were so close, and seeing her like that tore me apart. The treatment didn\u2019t stop at verbal abuse, it went as far as physical violence.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The summer of 2017 was hopeless for us, we kept on wondering whether things would get better from June to July, and then from July to August.\u00a0 We were wondering whether schools would open up in September and how we would get out of the current situation. We decided that we would have to leave. It was a very hard decision, as we knew that we wouldn\u2019t be leaving the country under normal circumstances – we would need to leave illegally. Like many of our friends, we have never received a disciplinary warning or punishment at our jobs. We were always very careful about obeying the laws and following the rules, so this was a tough decision we had to make. My son was two years old and my daughter was seven years old, so for us to pass through the Evros River was risky, but we had to take the risk. We decided to leave near the end of August and we didn\u2019t have the chance to tell our families as they were far away – my family was 200km away and my husband\u2019s family was 500km away. We tried to get into contact with them to tell them. We prepared for the trek with whatever we thought we needed. Thankfully we got to Evros river safely with the kids by our side along the journey. However, we were deemed to have crossed the border illegally.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

We were walking day and night, at times when our children were usually sleeping we were dragging them along. As my son was very young, so we carried him on our backs, but my daughter was seven years old.\u00a0 We had to make her walk with us as we couldn\u2018t carry her weight on our backs through the fields of mud. Thankfully, we didn\u2019t pass through very slippery trails, however there were lots of ups and downs, and we often had to jump. As we trekked the trails I felt so out of place.\u00a0 I was questioning why we were in this position, fleeing our own country. There was nothing that we could do. Most of the people who were incarcerated during these events all had empty folders with no criminal charges. It’s a difficult situation trying to explain to my daughter what it was that we were going through. When my daughter was staying with her grandmother she used to watch the TV show Survivor.\u00a0 She loved it, and as we would talk with her every night, she would give us updates about how the show was going. So I decided to tell her that we were going to partake in the Survivor and that there were rules we had to follow and that at the end of the race we were going to get some sort of a prize. The rules we needed to follow included walking for very long periods of time, sometimes in the dark, we weren’t to make any noise, and sometimes the trails might be wet but we were not to be scared. My daughter was very happy to hear this, she really thought we were going to take part in the Survivor. I was relieved as I didn’t want her to get scared. Some other people who went through the Evros River would give their children medication to calm them down and make them sleep throughout the journey. I hadn’t given my son any medication but thankfully he was very calm throughout the journey, as if he did make any loud noises the entire group could be caught.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

It’s interesting, never would I ever think that I would witness something like we did. We walked in Turkey for 2 hours, and then we reached the Evros River. We didn\u2019t think about it ahead of time, normally I’m quite a cautious and worrisome person, but we hadn\u2019t taken lifejackets for the kids. I guess I must have been so mad, sad, and focused on getting across that I forgot. Anything could have happened while we were crossing. But thank God we crossed without any problems, and we reached the other side. And that was it, it was done. There was only a river between us and our country. We crossed it and it was all done. It was truly such a crushing feeling, I\u2019m not sure how to express it, it was saddening. When we were told the story of the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) when he moved to Medinah, and he turned back to look at Meccah, and said \u201cif they didn\u2019t force me to leave, I would not leave you.\u201d Of course you can\u2019t exactly compare yourself to him, but we were being taken away from our homeland, where we were born, where we grew up and went to school, where we had children, where we got married, all for what?<\/span><\/p>\n

Because of all of the allegations, we had to go through so much stress and anxiety with our children to get here. We turned our backs to Turkey and only looked straight to the border. We were trying to reach a village on the border. There was a hostel waiting for us when we got there, but it had not been easy. We walked for 5 hours (to reach the hostel), our son on our back and my daughter walking alongside us, and once we got there, my daughter started to cry, she cried so much.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My daughter told us that she could not stand it and could not feel her feet anymore. We were so scared.<\/span><\/p>\n

Later on she said she was very tired, she couldn\u2019t go any further, as I had said we walked for 2 hours in Turkey, and then 5 more in Greece as we walked through ditches, mud, and hills. She held up very well considering the conditions. Someone else from the group even told her she was doing so well, and that they had complained more than her. My daughter has a quiet and calm demeanor, so she was crying quietly as we kept on going. That scene never leaves me, the conditions that we put our child through, a seven year old child should not have had to go through all of this. She had to flee with us, interestingly enough, let me make a connection now. Of course we never told her the truth about how we had to flee or escape, we never used that word. We tried explaining the situation differently. There were some friends who had crossed the river before us telling us about their walking journey from place to place, at this point my daughter had basically solved the situation and what was going on. But still, we were not using the word \u201cescape\u201d. The other day I caught her filming a video by herself, you know it\u2019s very popular these days…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Every child has a dream of being a YouTuber now, and while we were staying at a refugee camp in Germany she filmed it in our room, she\u2019s singing a song with lyrics about how she\u2019s different from everyone because she escaped. While I was thinking I did a good job not explaining our experience as escaping, she already figured it out herself. This shows how in her head we\u2019ve left a mark like this on her life. There is nothing to be done.<\/span><\/p>\n

This is one of the things that makes you sad. I would have wanted to leave better memories for my daughter. Anyway, we arrived in Greece. We stayed at a hostel, and in the morning I woke up first, but I couldn\u2019t really understand where we were as Greece is very similar to Turkey in terms of climate and geography, and then I saw the road signs in Greek.\u00a0 It\u2019s hard to process, and we were woken up with bell sounds (from the churches).\u00a0 It was odd, because I had never been woken up with this sound before. Until then I had always woken up with the sound of the call to prayer, athan. This was one of the things that really strained me psychologically. Later on we met up with friends in Thessaloniki and Athens. Thankfully we overcame that initial bitterness of being someplace new. Next we wanted to seek asylum in another European country. That was something that was hard for us, but thankfully within 15 days we were able to get to Germany.<\/span><\/p>\n

Once we arrived in Germany, we were entering one of the cities and the police noticed that we were refugees and pulled us aside. At that point the children started to cry, as they already had a fear of police. I really felt what it was like to be a refugee there, it was like we were screaming, \u2018our country doesn\u2019t accept us, I cannot survive in my own country, they have abandoned us, I do not have a citizenship, I do not belong anywhere.\u2019 Furthermore, I come from a country that is against me, that degrades me, slanders me, and wants to put me in jail. That is what a refugee is for me. We couldn\u2019t fend for ourselves against our country, we were in need of help in danger and we couldn\u2019t defend ourselves. These thoughts alone are so hard to grasp. This time period was just as hard physically as it was mentally. Our prayer is that God accepts this as our hijrah (Hijrah is an islamic term used to describe Prophet Muhammad\u2019s migration from Meccah to Medinah. ) Walking through the mud for such an extended period of time, of course that\u2019s hard, but believe me, what was hardest for us was entering a foreign country unauthorized, taking refuge and taking shelter from a country. I will never forget this for as long as I live, it\u2019s now a part of me. I think that was the hardest thing that strained us psychologically. When the police came, we were forced to say the truth, we were fleeing Turkey due to Erdogan and his regime, we told them the things we went through. Anyway, they took us and brought us to the police station.\u00a0 For about 4 hours, we explained to them what we had gone through. At first we were on our own trying to speak in English but then we got a translator to help. I thought they would keep us detained for a couple of days as we entered the country illegally, I was scared of what was bound to happen. We had come here from Greece in 15 days, and we hadn\u2019t gone to jail there, but I thought to myself that now we would be put in jail.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ben iki \u00e7ocuk sahibiyim… Nas\u0131l ba\u015flan\u0131r… \u0130ki \u00e7ocu\u011fum var. \u00d6ncesinde T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de End\u00fcstri M\u00fchendisli\u011fi okudum, e\u015fim \u0130n\u015faat M\u00fchendisiydi. G\u00fczel bir hayat\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 orada. Hizmetle alakadarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m esasen ortaokul y\u0131llar\u0131na dayan\u0131yor, kolej mezunuyum. Hizmetin okullar\u0131ndan mezunum ve o y\u0131llardan bu yana hi\u00e7 irtibat\u0131m\u0131 koparmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00fcniversite y\u0131llar\u0131na kadar devam etti. Sonras\u0131nda hizmet kurumlar\u0131nda devam ettim, \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, e\u015fimle tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f oldum. Her \u015fey bu anlamda g\u00fczeldi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hizmet ortam\u0131 hakikaten d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyadan belki T\u00fcrkiye\u2019deki ortamdan, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z di\u011fer ortamlara nazaran g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz, seyretti\u011fimiz (<\/span>kadariyla<\/span><\/i>) hakikaten bizi bu anlamda karde\u015fli\u011fin, fedakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011fu, di\u011fergaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011fu bizi mutlu eden, yapmak istedi\u011fimiz \u015feyler i\u00e7in yol g\u00f6steren ve \u00f6\u011freten bir \u00e7ok \u015feyde rehberlik eden bir birliktelikti a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 ve ger\u00e7ekten bu y\u00f6n\u00fcyle de T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de o d\u00f6nem itibari ile diyebilirim 2013\u2019e kadar belki de toplum baz\u0131nda da \u00e7ok ciddi art\u0131lar\u0131 olan ve insanlar\u0131n parmakla g\u00f6sterdi\u011fi.. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc belki i\u015fte \u00e7ok uzun y\u0131llar \u00f6ncesine gitti\u011fimizde, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019nin di\u011fer problemi de dindarl\u0131kla e\u011fitim alm\u0131\u015f insanlar\u0131n birlikte olamaz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesiydi. Dindarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u0130slam\u0131 ya\u015fama gayretinin ona engel olabilece\u011fi fen ilimleriyle ilerleyebilece\u011finin engel olmas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi eksenli oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in…\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Benim kanaatim hizmet bunu ger\u00e7ekten k\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, ya\u015fayan insanlar olarak bizatihi \u00f6rnekleri vard\u0131: namaz k\u0131lan doktor gibi, dua eden \u0130slam\u0131 ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan diyelim \u00f6zetle. Tabi bu y\u00f6n\u00fcyle de takdir topluyordu toplumdaki bir\u00e7ok kesimden, \u0130slam\u2019\u0131 ya\u015famak isteyen ya da istemeyen ya da dindar olan ya da olmayan… Fakat \u00e7ok enteresan bir r\u00fczg\u00e2r esti. 2013 y\u0131llar\u0131nda takdirle parmakla g\u00f6sterilen insanlar sebepsiz yere bir bahane ile sat\u0131lmaya ba\u015fland\u0131, i\u015f yerleri ticaretle u\u011fra\u015fanlar i\u015fyerlerini el de\u011fi\u015ftirdi, resmen bir bask\u0131yla kayyumlar atand\u0131. \u00d6tesinde baz\u0131 insanlar\u0131n memuriyetleri varsa o yava\u015f yava\u015f, komik sebeplerle ihra\u00e7 edildi ya da a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa al\u0131nd\u0131 gibi \u00e7ok enteresan hizmetin \u00fczerinde psikolojik, ger\u00e7ekten o toplumdan bu kadar takdir g\u00f6r\u00fcrken bir anda b\u00f6yle negatif bir tah\u015fidat yap\u0131lmaya ba\u015fland\u0131. \u0130\u015fte bu y\u00f6n\u00fcyle tabi insanlar hayretler i\u00e7erisinde izliyordu tabi. \u015eimdi T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de en \u00f6nemli e\u011fitim kurumlar\u0131ndan birisi dershaneler, \u00fcniversiteye haz\u0131rlayan ya da liseye haz\u0131rlayan ve hakikaten hizmet hareketi bu y\u00f6n\u00fcyle ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ekiyor ya da bu anlamda \u00e7ok ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 kurumlardan biri iken birden dershaneler kapat\u0131lma karar\u0131 al\u0131nd\u0131.\u00a0 Bunun gibi bir\u00e7ok iyi \u015fey, tabii \u015fu anda ya\u015fananlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda devede kulak kal\u0131r. Bir ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7t\u0131, bir basamakt\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o zamanlardan itibaren. Biz toplumda hem kendimizi, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ifade etmede zorlanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. 2015 de\u011fildi (<\/span>sadece<\/span><\/i>) esasen b\u00f6yle hakikaten enteresan iki y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131ktan sonra.. O zamanlar sadece k\u0131z\u0131m vard\u0131.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

24 Haziran\u2019da o\u011flum d\u00fcnyaya geldi. Tam bir y\u0131l sonras\u0131 kadar i\u015fte 15 Temmuz 2016\u2019da\u00a0 malum hadise meydana geldi. O d\u00f6nem ben <\/span>dogum<\/span><\/i> iznindeydim zaten bebek do\u011fdu\u011fu i\u00e7in, bir ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131, Ramazan Bayram\u0131yd\u0131, memlekete gitmi\u015ftim, annemlerin yan\u0131ndayd\u0131m, kendi ailemin. Hi\u00e7 haberim yoktu olaylardan, yani belki o ak\u015fam on gibi herkes televizyondan \u015furdan, burdan duymu\u015f ama biz evde o g\u00fcn uyumu\u015fuz, erken yatm\u0131\u015f\u0131z ne tevafuksa hep ahali olarak. Gece selalar okundu, \u00e7ok korktuk; hani ne oluyor hepimiz annem, babam, karde\u015flerim, iki tane ablam vard\u0131 o g\u00fcn evde. Allah Allah ne oluyor derken sonunda \u201cVatana millete sahip \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m.\u201d <\/span>diye<\/span><\/i> sela okunuyor ka\u00e7 kere, say\u0131s\u0131z.. Gecenin 2\u2019si 3\u2019\u00fc.. Sunu bile d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck acaba akl\u0131n\u0131 yitiren bir m\u00fcezzin yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131kla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 da bunu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor falan\u2026 Sonra neyse o karga\u015fada annem dedi a\u00e7al\u0131m \u015fu televizyona bakal\u0131m bir \u015fey mi oldu. Bir bakt\u0131k ki darbe dedikleri hadise, nas\u0131l darbeyse tabi anlamak da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, anlamad\u0131k \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc insanlar konu\u015farak, g\u00fclerek deme\u00e7 veriyorlar, olay\u0131 anlat\u0131yorlar, bu bizim i\u00e7in iyi oldu diyorlar. Bunlar\u0131 kula\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla duyduk ya\u015fad\u0131k yani iliklerimize kadar.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ve hadise koptu, bast\u0131r\u0131yoruz tabi \u00e7ok korktuk; hayat\u0131mda ilk defa b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey g\u00f6rd\u00fcm fakat annemin s\u00f6yledi\u011fi bir \u015feyi ifade etmek istiyorum, annem benim 70 k\u00fcs\u00fcr ya\u015f\u0131nda ve ilkokulu okumam\u0131\u015f okuma yazmas\u0131 yok ama hayat tecr\u00fcbesi hakikaten \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli. Dedi ki ben T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de bir \u00e7ok darbeye \u015fahit oldum, bak tam da bu hadiseyi televizyondan izlerken, bunu kendisi ifade etti; dedi \u201cAllah Allah, ben ilk defa b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Darbe dedikleri \u015feyin ilk defa bu halini g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum.\u201d, dedi. Bo\u011fazi\u00e7i k\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc kapatmak ne demek? Annem evet darbe uzman\u0131 de\u011fil, onu da b\u0131rak\u0131n hi\u00e7 e\u011fitim almam\u0131\u015f biri olarak bile hadiseyi okudu\u011funda ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ilk tepkisi bu oldu. Nas\u0131l bir darbe oldu bu acaba yani… Demem o ki \u015funa getirmek istiyorum bu hadiselerin d\u00fczmece oldu\u011funu ya da ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc bir tuzak oldu\u011funu anlamak i\u00e7in hakikaten \u00e7ok da \u00e7aba sarf etmeye gerek yok \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc her \u015fey hakikaten trajikomik sergilendi. Trajikomik diyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7ok masum insan orada zarar g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Duydu\u011fumuz hadiseler tabi bunlar\u0131n ger\u00e7ek planinda, arka planda hi\u00e7 bir \u015feyini \u00f6\u011frenme ya da yan\u0131na gidip izleme duyma imkan\u0131m\u0131z olmad\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o g\u00fcnden itibaren her\u015feyimiz kilitlendi ve kald\u0131k. Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sabah\u0131nda bir s\u00fcr\u00fc liste a\u00e7\u0131kland\u0131 hakiminden, savc\u0131s\u0131ndan, bilmem neyinden art\u0131k \u00fcst kademe olarak. M\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil bir gecede bilmem ka\u00e7 tane isim, bir gecede bilmem ka\u00e7 tane insan, 2000-3000 k\u00fcs\u00fcr say\u0131y\u0131 \u015fu an hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum isimler veriliyor d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn, bunlarla dava a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor ka\u00e7 y\u0131l tutuklanacaklar bilmiyorum. Her\u015feyleri haz\u0131r bir \u015fekilde \u00e7ok enteresan\u2026 Tabi bu insan\u0131 \u00e7ok \u00fcrk\u00fct\u00fcyor do\u011fal olarak ne yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k. E\u015fim o zaman yan\u0131mda de\u011fildi, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Tabi hemen e\u015fimi arad\u0131m hepimiz kilitlendik, ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc enteresan bir su\u00e7lama var, siz yapt\u0131n\u0131z diyorlar b\u00f6yle b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u015feyi, i\u015fte bizde bast\u0131rd\u0131k diyorlar g\u00fcya. Tabi \u00e7ok ama \u00e7ok korkun\u00e7tu, her\u015feyiyle \u00e7ok korkun\u00e7tu.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Tabi o 2013\u2019lerde ba\u015flayan sosyal d\u0131\u015flanma art\u0131k \u00e7ok belirgin bir \u015fekilde korkuyla birlikte veyahutta \u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim bu tabiri kullanacagim ama birilerine yaranmak u\u011fruna, isim vermek, onu s\u00f6ylemesi, konu kom\u015funun birbirine girmesi hatta anne baban\u0131n, akraban\u0131n karde\u015fin yer yer… Oyle hadiseler duyduk ki bunlar\u0131n hepsi korkunun, ba\u015fka \u015feylerden faydalanman\u0131n (malum yani bir s\u00fcr\u00fc memur a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 olu\u015ftu ve bir de bunlarla m\u00fccadele ettik) Psikolojik olarak da bir insan\u0131n i\u015fini kaybetmesine \u00fcz\u00fclmeyi b\u0131rak\u0131n, \u201c\u00c7ok g\u00fczel o kaybetti, yerine benim o\u011flum gelebilir, ben gelebilirim.\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleriyle de \u00e7ok ger\u00e7ekten y\u0131prand\u0131k. Tabi mesele sadece i\u015f kaybetmekle bitmedi. Ben kendi hayat\u0131mdan \u015fimdi \u00f6rnek verece\u011fim -tabi daha da zor durumda olanlar\u0131 var.- ben devlet memuru de\u011fildim, \u00f6zel bir \u015firkette \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum, m\u00fchendislik yap\u0131yordum ama benim i\u00e7in hemen zaten i\u015ften \u00e7\u0131kmak oldu yani bulundu\u011fum yer e\u015fimin bulundu\u011fu yer de an\u0131nda kapat\u0131ld\u0131 zaten KHK ile \u00e7\u0131kan \u015feylerle (<\/span>kanunlarla<\/span><\/i>)…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ve hani bizim i\u00e7in ilk \u00f6nemli \u015fey ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z \u015fu an? Mesela \u00e7ok yeni ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m evden hemen ta\u015f\u0131nmak zorunda kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, ikametimi de\u011fi\u015ftirmek zorundayd\u0131m. \u00c7ocu\u011fum (kizim) o y\u0131l birinci s\u0131n\u0131fa ba\u015flayacakt\u0131, ayn\u0131 okul eski ikametine g\u00f6reydi, okulu de\u011fi\u015ftirmek istemiyoruz ama ikametimizde de kalmak istemiyoruz, ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z dedik, sonra \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr yak\u0131n bir yerinde bir ev bulduk oraya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131k. E\u015fim bir m\u00fcddet kalmad\u0131 yani hani olalibir, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc her \u015fey o kadar havadaki, ne i\u00e7in yap\u0131l\u0131yor, kim kimi \u015fikayet ediyor, deminden de ifade etti\u011fim gibi yani hi\u00e7 olmayacak bir yerden bir insan diyor ki bu da b\u00f6yle, bu i\u015flerle me\u015fguld\u00fc, (onlar tabi daha a\u011f\u0131r ifadeler kullan\u0131yor tabi ben o ifadeleri kullanmayaca\u011f\u0131m f ile ba\u015flayan), b\u00f6yleciydi \u015f\u00f6yleciydi diye kendilerince bir yerlere yaranma duygusuyla veyahut kendini kurtarma refleksiyle enteresan bir \u015fekilde sald\u0131rd\u0131lar yani tabiri caizse\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Biz de hemen yeni bir ev bulduk oraya ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131k e\u015fim dedi\u011fim gibi gelemedi bir m\u00fcddet, tedbirli olmak i\u00e7in, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00e7ocu\u011fu okula gidip geldi\u011fi i\u00e7in okuldan da takip olur mu acaba, hi\u00e7 unutmuyorum yani k\u0131z\u0131m ilkokul bire gidiyor \u00e7ocu\u011fumu b\u0131rak\u0131yorum, almaya gitti\u011fim zaman araba plakalar\u0131na bak\u0131yorum, olur da bulundu\u011fum ilden gelen bir plaka var m\u0131, beni al\u0131r m\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn yani yakla\u015f\u0131k yani zannediyorum 4 ay kadar \u00e7ocu\u011fumu b\u00f6yle okula b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Sonra y\u0131llarca birlikte \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m arkada\u015flar\u0131m bir\u00e7o\u011fu evlerinden al\u0131nd\u0131. Bir 4 ay sonras\u0131nda zannediyorum hangi oluyor 2016\u2019n\u0131n devam\u0131 2017ye yeni girmi\u015fiz; yani 2017\u2019nin ilk aylar\u0131, ilk g\u00fcnleri, bakt\u0131k herkes al\u0131n\u0131yor b\u00f6yle olmayacak yani kizim H. \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131da \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc okula gidip geliyor ve bizim adresimiz tespit edilebilir… Ne yapal\u0131m, ne yapal\u0131m sonra oturduk konu\u015ftuk dedik tabi ona her \u015feyi ayr\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 s\u00f6yleyemeyiz ona \u015f\u00f6yle ifade etti\u011fimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum, anneci\u011fim bir yanl\u0131\u015f anla\u015f\u0131lma var, baban\u0131n yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 baban\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f bir \u015fey yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen birileri var, \u015fimdi do\u011fruyu anlatmak i\u00e7in gayret ediyoruz biz ama o s\u00fcrede gelirlerse farkl\u0131 \u015feyler olabilir gibi, benim de ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde bizim \u00fczerimize at\u0131lan bir iftira var bunu \u00f6nce \u00e7\u00f6zmemiz gerekiyor gibi makul bir \u015fekilde izah etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Tabi zihinde yani ka\u00e7 ya\u015f oluyor 6 bu\u00e7uk 7 ya\u015f\u0131nda bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun ne kadar oturmu\u015ftur bilemiyorum sonra konu\u015ftuk \u015funa getirece\u011fim sonra ben sordum k\u0131z\u0131m okula gitmek ister misin ya da evde durmak ister misin \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc okula gidemeyecek art\u0131k yani \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc okula giderse dedi\u011fim gibi evimiz tespit edilebilir.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cBen kesinlikle okula gitmek istiyorum anne.\u201d dedi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in k\u0131z\u0131m \u00e7ok uzun bir s\u00fcre kre\u015fe gitti art\u0131k hani oyun oynama \u015feylerinden \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, art\u0131k okulu ar\u0131yordu yani tam ger\u00e7ekten o olgunlu\u011fa eri\u015fmi\u015fti, e \u015fimdi okuma yazmay\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc, zevkli. Ben ona dedim ki okulu b\u0131rakal\u0131m veyahut ikinci \u015fans\u0131m\u0131z babaannenin yan\u0131na gidebilirsin. Babaannemizle aram\u0131z takribi 500 km var, b\u00f6yle olunca tabi o \u00f6nce kabul etti, a\u011flad\u0131 biraz ama dedi olsun ben gideyim anne, size de bir zarar gelmesin. S\u00fcre\u00e7 \u00e7ocuklari da \u00e7ok ekstra ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar olgunla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Neyse ben k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm tabi ama insan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan s\u00f6yledi\u011fi gibi olmuyor ya\u015farken, gidecek babaannesiyle okula gidecek, Allah raz\u0131 olsun babaannemiz \u00e7ok e\u011fitimli, destek olabilecek zaten k\u0131vamda, her ak\u015fam telefonla konu\u015fuyorduk ama evde konu\u015fmamak laz\u0131m, internetten adres tespiti olur mu, kafelere gidiyorsunuz oraya buraya gidiyorsunuz. Neyse \u00e7ocu\u011fun bize ihtiyac\u0131 var, \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ilk 23 Nisan\u2019da g\u00f6sterisi var, \u00e7ok yalvard\u0131 bana anne ne olur l\u00fctfen gel, o g\u00fcn ben yokum diye \u00e7ok a\u011flam\u0131\u015f.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130\u015fte 1 May\u0131s do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc ona yeti\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ama bir \u015fekilde gittim, g\u00f6ze ald\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn tehlikeleri gittim. C\u00fcnk\u00fc GBT dedi\u011fimiz n\u00fcfus c\u00fczdanlar\u0131m\u0131za bakarak hakk\u0131m\u0131zda a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f dava var m\u0131 yok mu yol kontrollerinde vs \u00e7ok s\u0131kl\u0131kla bu \u015fekilde \u00e7ok insan maalesef al\u0131nd\u0131 ama onu g\u00f6ze alarak gittik, yani dayanamad\u0131k babaannesinin evine\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Zannediyorum ki bir hafta kadar kalabildim yan\u0131nda. Sonra tabi \u00e7ok a\u011flad\u0131 umdu\u011fumdan, k\u0131z\u0131m \u00e7ok sever babaannesini asl\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken de kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmu\u015ftu ara ara, k\u0131sa vakitlerde ama tabi bu hem \u00e7ok uzun hem de bir birinci s\u0131n\u0131f tecr\u00fcbesi \u00e7ok ayr\u0131 bir \u015fey yani okula ilk defa ba\u015fl\u0131yor, her \u015feyini benimle payla\u015fmak istiyor ama yok, annesi yok yani, b\u00f6ylelikle asl\u0131nda \u00e7ocuklar i\u00e7in de \u00e7ok yani k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckler belki olaylar\u0131 alg\u0131layacak durumda de\u011filler fakat \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015feyler ya\u015fad\u0131lar hakikaten, o\u011flum \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fc o zaman bir bu\u00e7uk ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131, bak\u0131ma muhta\u00e7 bir \u015fekildeydi, o y\u00fczden bir de tabi bunun a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da \u00e7ok ya\u015fad\u0131m ben. O\u011flum yeni do\u011fdu bir ya\u015f\u0131nda bir bu\u00e7uk ya\u015f\u0131nda, sonu\u00e7ta aralar\u0131nda be\u015f ya\u015f kadar ya\u015f fark\u0131 var, ben o zamana kadar k\u0131z\u0131mla alakadar olmu\u015fum, art\u0131k yeni bir karde\u015fi oluyor, ister istemez tabiki o i\u00e7indeki, anneyi payla\u015fmak, babay\u0131 payla\u015fmak, ben bir y\u0131l sonras\u0131nda diyorum ki sen babaannenin yan\u0131nda kalmak zorundas\u0131n, o\u011flum benim yan\u0131mda kalacak, ben \u00e7ok bocalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm, akl\u0131na gelir miyim acaba, annem babam beni b\u0131rakt\u0131 gitti diye, \u015fimdi ne kadar anlatsan\u0131z da \u00e7ocuk en nihayetinde, hakikaten bunlar\u0131 alg\u0131lamas\u0131 \u00e7ok zor.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

B\u00f6yle \u00e7ok zorlu bir d\u00f6nem ge\u00e7ti yani benim i\u00e7in hakikaten en a\u011f\u0131r vaziyetlerden biri buydu. \u00c7ocu\u011fumdan ayr\u0131 kalmak, onun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar, yani ben o ayr\u0131 kalma duygusu o sinenize bast\u0131rabilirsiniz ama \u015fu anda bile mesela yer yer k\u0131z\u0131m bana hala diyor, anne sen biliyor musun ben her ak\u015fam a\u011fl\u0131yordum, b\u00f6yle biraz k\u00f6t\u00fc oluyorum ama sonra diyorum yapacak bir \u015fey yok, birlikteyiz ya \u015fimdi, \u015fu an en b\u00fcy\u00fck nimet bu bizim i\u00e7in, bir l\u00fcks yani…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Tabi b\u00f6yle her \u015fey ger\u00e7ekten darmada\u011f\u0131n, yani zihinler… \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kimisi hapse d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f anne baban\u0131n, kimisi saklan\u0131yor, kimi yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131na ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, gitmek zorunda kalm\u0131\u015f; b\u00f6yle bir vaziyet ve \u015f\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7ok hareketli, kendinizce gayretli, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan bir hayattan sonra mesela ben Y\u00fcksek lisans yap\u0131yordum o s\u0131rada, tezimi haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, tezimi sunacakt\u0131m, tam yaz vakti o yaz\u0131n sonunda Eyl\u00fcl gibi, Temmuz 15\u2019te o hadise koptu tabi ve kald\u0131 tezim, \u00f6yle kald\u0131 gidemedim \u00fcniversiteye \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc gitti\u011finiz anda, \u00fcniversitede bir liste var \u00f6zellikle benim bulundu\u011fum y\u00fcksek lisans \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. An\u0131nda sizi alabilirler yani hayalleriniz, akademik beklentileriniz, ba\u015farmak istedikleriniz, her \u015fey \u00e7ok yar\u0131m kald\u0131\u2026 Tabi bunlar bir \u00e7ok \u015feyin yan\u0131nda \u00e7ok da \u00f6nemli de\u011fil fakat d\u00fcnya y\u00f6n\u00fcyle de yapmak istedi\u011finiz, ba\u015farmak istedi\u011finiz \u015feylerin de \u00f6n\u00fc haks\u0131zca, nedensizce, anlams\u0131zca kapat\u0131ld\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ve ger\u00e7ekten ilk ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerde kom\u015fular\u0131mla diyalo\u011fa dahi ge\u00e7emiyordum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc korkuyorum ufac\u0131k bir \u015feyden<\/span> beni (enteresan bir \u015fey insanlar, bu d\u00fczg\u00fcn bir insan deyip \u015fikayet ediyorlard\u0131) biz inan\u0131n bunlara \u015fahit olduk, bu \u00e7ok d\u00fczg\u00fcn bir insan, hem mesle\u011fi var, hem d\u00fczg\u00fcn, hem dindar, \u0130slamiyeti ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor bu kesin o zaman b\u00f6yledir yani. \u015eikayet ediliyor, o y\u00fczden temaslar\u0131m\u0131zda k\u0131s\u0131tl\u0131, apartmandakileri g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde sadece selam veriyoruz, hi\u00e7 kimse gidip gelmeden, gelen misafirlerimizi elden geldi\u011fince saklayarak, ya da hi\u00e7 kimseyi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmayarak, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnebiliyor musunuz hayat\u0131n\u0131zda b\u00fct\u00fcn sosyal anlamda m\u00fcthi\u015f bir travma yani, \u00e7ok ba\u015fka bir y\u00f6nden \u00e7ok ba\u015fka bir y\u00f6ne b\u00f6yle\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f oluyorsunuz yani ger\u00e7ekten b\u00f6yle \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetli iken birden \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetsiz yap\u0131veriyorlar, tabi insanlar\u0131n nezdindeki duru\u015f da \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli de de\u011fil fakat birlikte ya\u015f\u0131yorsunuz, bir \u015feyler payla\u015f\u0131yorsunuz, hayat\u0131 payla\u015f\u0131yorsunuz, ister istemez bu kayg\u0131lar da \u00e7ok yoruyor yani evet acaba bu ne der, bu ne s\u00f6yler, her konu\u015fmam\u0131zdan, k\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan k\u0131yafetinizden\u2026 Bunlara bile dikkat etmemiz gerekti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorduk yani. K\u0131l\u0131k k\u0131yafette bile bir standart, bir duru\u015f sergilemi\u015fiz demek ki hizmetten olarak.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Eski giydi\u011finiz \u015feyleri giymiyorsunuz, ya\u015fad\u0131k, pantolon giymek \u00e7ok tarz\u0131m de\u011fildi etek giyiyordum genelde, pantolon giymeye ba\u015flad\u0131k burada birisi \u015fikayet etmesin diye ve bu korkular bu kayg\u0131lar birilerine g\u00f6re hayat\u0131 ya\u015fama, bunlar en basitleri, bir de resmi uygulanan bask\u0131, \u015fiddet var g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda kar\u015f\u0131la\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z muamele var, ben bunlara \u015fahit olmad\u0131m, \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, ama maalesef \u00e7ok, \u00e7ok duyduk yani, her yerden duymaya devam ediyoruz, mesela daha iki g\u00fcn \u00f6ncesinde arkada\u015f\u0131min o\u011flunun ameliyat olmas\u0131 gerekiyordu yan\u0131nda olmak istedi\u011fi i\u00e7in gitmemesi gerekiyor asl\u0131nda\u00a0 ama bir anne olarak, baba zaten hapiste, do\u011fal olarak ve oradan al\u0131nd\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr sorgudayd\u0131 yani \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bug\u00fcn tahliye ettiler, \u015fartl\u0131 tahliye ettiler ama i\u00e7imiz i\u00e7imizi kemirdi yani \u00e7ok yakinen, \u00e7ok birlikte oldu\u011fum \u00e7ok samimi olan ablam, evet ben ya\u015famad\u0131m ama ya\u015fayan \u00e7ok ki\u015fiye \u015fahit oldu\u011fum, duydu\u011fum i\u00e7in dedi\u011fim gibi sadece belki s\u00f6zle yap\u0131lan bask\u0131lar de\u011fil, fiziksel \u015fiddet de mevcut, \u00e7ok \u00e7ok y\u0131prat\u0131c\u0131\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Evet i\u015fte o yaz, 2017\u2019nin yaz\u0131nda \u00e7ok \u00e7aresizce Hazirandan Temmuz\u2019a bir \u015feyler d\u00fczelir mi, anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131r m\u0131, Temmuzdan A\u011fustos\u2019a, yemin ederim aynen b\u00f6yle oldu, acaba Eyl\u00fcl\u2019de okullar a\u00e7\u0131lacak ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z yani biz nas\u0131l bu i\u015fin i\u00e7inden \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131z, evet sonra dedik ki biz gidelim, \u00e7\u0131kal\u0131m yani b\u00f6yle olmayacak bir \u015feyler d\u00fczelmeyecek, tabii \u00e7ok zor bir karar, her y\u00f6n\u00fcyle \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc normal yollarla \u00e7\u0131kamayaca\u011f\u0131z, ka\u00e7ak yollarla \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131z ve inan\u0131n bir \u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131m gibi yani hizmetteki arkada\u015f\u0131m gibi bir disiplin cezam\u0131z dahi yok, hassaten \u00f6zellikle dikkat ederiz hata yapmamaya kural neyse ona uymaya ama bu karar\u0131 almak zorundayd\u0131k kendimiz ad\u0131na, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z ad\u0131na. \u0130ki ya\u015f\u0131nda o\u011flum, yedi ya\u015f\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131m, biz Meri\u00e7\u2019ten ge\u00e7meye karar verdik, g\u00f6ze ald\u0131k her \u015feyi. A\u011fustos sonu gibiydi, ailelere de bir \u015fey s\u00f6yleyemedik. Uzaktalar \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, benim ailem 200 km, e\u015fimin ailesi 500 km uzakl\u0131ktayd\u0131. Bir \u015fekilde ba\u015fka yollarla irtibata ge\u00e7ip ifade etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, sonra aniden dedim i\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir haftada falan \u00f6yle s\u00f6yleyeyim karar verdik, sonra haz\u0131rl\u0131k yapt\u0131k i\u015fte kendimizce ne gerekiyorsa o yol i\u00e7in, sonra Meri\u00e7\u2019in yolunu tuttuk, \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr selametle ge\u00e7tik, tabi yine \u00e7ocuklar devrede bir yol a\u015faca\u011f\u0131z ama bir yere ka\u00e7ak gidece\u011fiz\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Nas\u0131l ifade edeceksiniz ak\u015fam gece y\u00fcr\u00fcyorsunuz, uyku saatlerinde \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcyorsunuz, o\u011flum zaten k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in onu s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131zda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131k ama k\u0131z\u0131m b\u00fcy\u00fck yani yedi ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu ta\u015f\u0131man\u0131z m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil, yollar \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bildi\u011finiz tarlalardan, bal\u00e7\u0131klardan… Biz \u00e7ok \u0131slak yollardan ge\u00e7medik \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr fakat tali aras\u0131, ini\u015fli yoku\u015flu bir yerden atl\u0131yorsun, \u00f6b\u00fcr yerden hopluyorsun\u2026 Bir oturuyorsun bir kalk\u0131yorsun \u00e7ok tarifsiz bir duyguydu, \u00e7ok zor, niye ka\u00e7\u0131yorum ben ne yapt\u0131m ama izah edemiyorsunuz yapacak bir \u015fey yok, evet kim ne yapt\u0131 i\u00e7erdekilerden hangisinin bir su\u00e7u vard\u0131, yok bombo\u015f dosyalar. Bu psikolojiyle evet neyse kizim H.ye izah etmem gerekiyordu nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131m nas\u0131l anlataca\u011f\u0131m… babaannesiyle kal\u0131rken o survivor \u00e7ok seviyordu, malum konu\u015fuyoruz her ak\u015fam, \u00fcnl\u00fcler yendi \u015fimdi \u015f\u00f6yle oldu falan acaba \u015fey mi yapsam desem survivor\u2019a \u00e7\u0131kmaya karar verdik biz de survivor yapaca\u011f\u0131z, i\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir yar\u0131\u015fma sonunda da kamp hediyesi alaca\u011f\u0131z, i\u015fte orada y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fteki birka\u00e7 kural\u0131 anlatt\u0131m gece y\u00fcr\u00fcmek zorunday\u0131z, hi\u00e7 sesimizin \u00e7\u0131kmamas\u0131 laz\u0131m, biraz uzun y\u00fcr\u00fcyece\u011fiz dayanmam\u0131z laz\u0131m ve dedim \u0131slak yol olabilir korkmamam\u0131z laz\u0131m… \u00c7ok sevindi ger\u00e7ekten survivor zannetti, a s\u00fcper dedi, ona mutlu oldum tabi onu \u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcnce \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc di\u011fer t\u00fcrl\u00fc korkup ba\u011f\u0131rabilir, ne engelleyecek… D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn yani orada ila\u00e7 falan i\u00e7iriyorlar \u00e7ocuklara uyusun diye, ben o\u011fluma da vermedim ama \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr o da ba\u011f\u0131rmad\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bir ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131rsa b\u00fct\u00fcn grubu yakabilirsiniz yani\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Enteresan bir \u015fey yani, ona da \u015fahit olmu\u015f olduk d\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u00fcyle, akl\u0131m\u0131n ucundan bile ge\u00e7mezdi. Sonra T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de yakla\u015f\u0131k 2 saat kadar y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck sonra Meri\u00e7\u2019e vard\u0131k hi\u00e7 ak\u0131l etmemi\u015fiz ben normalde \u00e7ok evhaml\u0131 bir insan\u0131m, en ufak \u015feyleri bile evham ederim ama nas\u0131l bir k\u0131zg\u0131nl\u0131kla, nas\u0131l \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle, nas\u0131l bir can havliyle yola \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ysak yani \u00e7ocuklara yelek bile almam\u0131\u015f\u0131m yani her \u015fey olabilir ki oldu maalesef, neler ya\u015fand\u0131 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr biz ge\u00e7tik, bir problem olmad\u0131 yani, kar\u015f\u0131 k\u0131y\u0131ya ula\u015ft\u0131k, bitti, her \u015fey bitti, \u00fclkeyle aram\u0131zda \u00fclkemizle aram\u0131zda bir irmak vard\u0131 ka\u00e7t\u0131k ve bitti yani, o da \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 m\u00fcthi\u015f bir eziklik yani eziklik mi nas\u0131l ifade edilir bilmiyorum hangi duyguyla ama \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle yani \u00f6yle s\u00f6yleyeyim, yani ger\u00e7ekten hani mi hep b\u00f6yle dinliyorduk Allah Resul\u2019\u00fcn\u00fcn Medine\u2019den \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131l\u0131rken, i\u015fte Mekke\u2019ye arkas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp beni zorlamasalar senden ayr\u0131lmazd\u0131m demesi gibi, tabi belki k\u0131yaslanamaz ama insan\u0131n vatan\u0131 do\u011fdu\u011fu yer, \u00fclkesi, okudu\u011fu, b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, \u00e7ocuk sahibi oldu\u011fu, e\u015f sahibi oldu\u011fu yer, ne i\u00e7in yani, ni\u00e7in?…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Evet hi\u00e7, belki de hi\u00e7bir \u015fey i\u00e7in \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc olan hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok.. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir iftiradan dolay\u0131 \u00e7ocuklarla birlikte o s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yollar a\u015f\u0131ld\u0131. Tamamen arkam\u0131zda kald\u0131, art\u0131k T\u00fcrkiye arkam\u0131zda biz \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze bak\u0131yoruz, Yunanistan\u2019da bir k\u0131y\u0131k\u00f6y\u00fcne varmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Bir pansiyon bekliyor bizi tabi kolay olmad\u0131 yani \u00e7ok uzun y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck yani 5 saat takribi y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck, o\u011flum s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131zda k\u0131z\u0131m y\u00fcr\u00fcyor, ve son k\u0131z\u0131m o kadar \u00e7ok a\u011flad\u0131 ki…<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m dedi art\u0131k anne dayanam\u0131yorum ayaklar\u0131m tutmuyor, habire uyar\u0131yoruz, \u00e7ok korktuk\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Sonras\u0131nda \u00e7ok yoruldum dedi art\u0131k a\u011fl\u0131yor, dayanam\u0131yorum, y\u00fcr\u00fcyemiyorum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc dedi\u011fim gibi 2 saat T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck 5 saat Yunanistan\u2019da y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck tarlalardan \u00e7amurlardan, gene de \u00e7ok iyi dayand\u0131 hatta gruptaki arkada\u015flar bir tanesi dedi ben senden daha \u00e7ok yak\u0131nd\u0131m aferin sana falan, \u00f6yle sessiz sessiz a\u011flad\u0131… Zaten b\u00f6yle \u00e7ok sakin bir \u00e7ocuk yap\u0131s\u0131 var, i\u00e7li i\u00e7li a\u011fl\u0131yor\u2026 Tabi o sahne de hi\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcmden gitmiyor, \u00e7ocu\u011fuma ya\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m, \u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum yani, b\u00f6yle mi olmal\u0131yd\u0131 yani yedi ya\u015f\u0131nda b\u00f6yle bir sahneye, ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f sahnesi.. Cok enteresan \u015fimdi bir ba\u011flant\u0131 kuray\u0131m buradayken, normalde ona ben tabii ka\u00e7mak gibi \u00fclkeyi terk etmek gibi izah etmedi\u011fim i\u00e7in hep farkl\u0131 y\u00f6nleri vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in, g\u00fcya biz ona hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemiyoruz ama Yunanistan\u2019a gitti\u011fimizde arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6nceden ge\u00e7enler kald\u0131klar\u0131 yerde \u015furada burada, bir y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f maceras\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131yor yani nas\u0131l ge\u00e7ti\u011fini, tabii o art\u0131k olay\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015f, anlam\u0131\u015f yine ka\u00e7mak demiyoruz, kullanm\u0131yoruz ama mesela ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn kendince bir video \u00e7ekiyor malum \u00e7ok me\u015fhur\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Her \u00e7ocuk art\u0131k YouTuber olma hevesi var, bir bakt\u0131m Almanya\u2019da kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z m\u00fclteci kamp\u0131nda \u00e7ekmi\u015f odam\u0131zda. \u0130\u015fte ben herkesten farkl\u0131y\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben ka\u00e7t\u0131m falan diye \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6zleri yazm\u0131\u015f. Ben kendimce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum yani onun kafas\u0131na birka\u00e7 i\u015f olgusu b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey yok ama \u00f6yle de\u011filmi\u015f o her \u015feyi \u00e7\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015f yani onun hayat\u0131nda b\u00f6yle bir iz b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f olduk yapacak bir \u015fey yok art\u0131k\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Bu da insan\u0131 \u00fczen \u015feylerden birisi. Daha g\u00fczel an\u0131lar b\u0131rakmak isterdik yani neyse \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ge\u00e7tik bir selametle ge\u00e7tik Yunanistan\u2019dan. Sonra orada bir pansiyonda kald\u0131k, tabi sabah ben ilk uyand\u0131m, daha da anlam\u0131yorum yani yan\u0131m\u0131zda T\u00fcrkiye, iklim olarak da birbirine \u00e7ok benziyor, ortam olarak da tabi ben Yunanca tabelalar\u0131 g\u00f6rene kadar, dedim art\u0131k biz ge\u00e7mi\u015fiz. Cok alg\u0131l\u0131yam\u0131yorsunuz, bir de sabah i\u015fte \u00e7an sesiyle uyan\u0131nca \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc oldu, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in o zamana kadar i\u015fte yani ezan sesiyle uyan\u0131rken birden \u00e7an sesiyle uyan\u0131yorsunuz falan. O da \u00e7ok garibime gitmi\u015fti, beni psikolojik olarak zorlayan \u015feylerden biri olmu\u015ftu. Sonras\u0131nda arkada\u015flarla bulu\u015funca Yunanistan\u2019da, Selanik\u2019te, Atina\u2019da farkl\u0131 yerlerde\u2026\u00a0 \u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr o burukluk ge\u00e7ti atlatm\u0131\u015f olduk, bu seferde Almanya\u2019ya ge\u00e7me.. O da ayr\u0131 bir psikolojik y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k, maddi manevi \u00e7ok ciddi bir y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k.. Bizim o i\u015fimiz kolay olmu\u015ftu \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr 15 g\u00fcn kadar kald\u0131k ve hemen ge\u00e7ebildik\u2026<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Ge\u00e7tik ge\u00e7mesine ama Almanya\u2019da i\u015fte \u015fehirlerden birine girerken polis bizim m\u00fclteci oldu\u011fumuzu anlad\u0131, yasak girdi\u011fimizi, hemen durdurdu. Orada tabii \u00e7ocuklar a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaten bir polis korkusu var, esasen m\u00fcltecilik duygusunu da orada \u00e7ok ya\u015fad\u0131m. M\u00fclteci demek burada \u015funu hayk\u0131r\u0131yorsun: \u00fclkemde kabul edilmiyorum, \u00fclkemde tutunam\u0131yorum, sahipsizim (d\u00fcnya imkanlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan) evet ben bir birey olarak, vatanda\u015f olarak bir devletim yok benim, arkamda duran, tam aksine kar\u015f\u0131mda duran, durmadan beni k\u00f6t\u00fcleyen, ya da bana iftiralar atan beni hapse sokmaya can atan bir devletle kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131yay\u0131m ve ben tutunam\u0131yorum yani, muhtac\u0131m, ihtiyac\u0131m var.. Bu demek bence, bunlar demek yani benim hissettiklerim bunlar.. Ben tehlikeliyim, ben korunam\u0131yorum, yani tabi bu duygu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler fevkalade \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r, tarifsiz, bu s\u00fcrecin getirdi\u011fi fiziksel zorluklarla birlikte esasen..\u00a0 \u0130n\u015fallah bu hicret olmu\u015ftur. Di\u011fer bir duam\u0131z bu ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zdan sonra onlarla alakal\u0131 yani.. O \u00e7amurda y\u00fcr\u00fcmek, \u00e7ok uzun y\u00fcr\u00fcmek, evet bunlar zor, bir \u015fey olur mu olmaz m\u0131\u2026 Evet zor ama en zoru da inan\u0131n ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131nda, ba\u015fka bir milletin topra\u011f\u0131nda, onlardan izinsiz girmek, onlara s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmak, yani hakikaten benim herhalde hayat\u0131m boyunca unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m yani hayat\u0131m boyunca pe\u015fimi b\u0131rakmayacak.. D\u00fcnya anlam\u0131nda psikolojik olarak zorlayan \u015feylerden birisi de bu yani. Polis geldi mesela biz mecburen s\u00f6yledik, Erdo\u011fan\u2019dan ka\u00e7\u0131yoruz, T\u00fcrk\u2019\u00fcz, dedik tutunam\u0131yoruz, orada ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za b\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle \u015feyler geldi neyse bizi ald\u0131lar emniyete g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler, karakola g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler, i\u015fte Almanya\u2019daki, orta diyalo\u011fa ge\u00e7tiler 4 saat kadar falan, biraz \u0130ngilizce konu\u015ftuk ama daha net anla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 i\u00e7in bir terc\u00fcman geldi orada durumumuzu anlatt\u0131k ben zannediyorum ki bizi orada birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn Almanya\u2019da i\u00e7erde tutarlar \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ka\u00e7ak girmi\u015fsiniz, bir \u015fekilde su\u00e7 i\u015flemi\u015fsiniz kara kara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.. Yunanistan\u2019da \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr girmedik hapse. 15 g\u00fcn gibi k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre de Elhamdulillah ge\u00e7ebildik ama Almanya\u2019da yakaland\u0131k girdi\u011fimiz anda, dedim evet herhalde \u015fimdi zaman\u0131 girece\u011fiz biz bir hapse..\u00a0<\/span>
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