{"id":325,"date":"2020-04-04T23:08:05","date_gmt":"2020-04-05T03:08:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sites.bu.edu\/storiesofwomen\/?p=325"},"modified":"2020-04-05T19:46:00","modified_gmt":"2020-04-05T23:46:00","slug":"interview-17","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sites.bu.edu\/storiesofwomen\/2020\/04\/04\/interview-17\/","title":{"rendered":"Interview #17"},"content":{"rendered":"

She was 9-months-pregnant when her husband was jailed. With the fear of being prosecuted after her husband, she could not even feel being a mother. Raising her daughter without her husband now, she knows she has to be strong and she waits for the time her husband will be released.
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You can keep a record of my voice. Let me talk about the frightening July 15 coup attempt night. I was 9 months pregnant, and my husband was sick. We were sleeping, and then we woke up to tremendous noise. And afterwards, we never went back to sleep that night. We were trying to understand what was happening, but we never thought that it would have something to do with us. I was pregnant, but we had left the shopping for baby-related stuff to the last month.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I suppose one feels things; I was becoming anxious to do the shopping we should.\u00a0 My husband was detained ten days after that situation, and we had been shopping for our baby since the day after the coup attempt. We looked for baby cribs and things. And then my husband got arrested. He was in custody for 4 days, and I cannot describe the feelings that I had during those 4 days. I prayed a lot. I was 9 months pregnant and my husband was arrested.\u00a0 It feels very different when you are married.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was completely shocked, like in a complete state of numbness. I did not know what to feel; I was just crying and praying to God, asking Him not to leave me alone. The first time I visited my husband, there were few people. I gave birth a week later by a C-section. I could not go and see my husband during that week. The next visit after the delivery was very hard indeed. I could not tell how crowded the entrance of the jail was. I had to wait for 2-3 hours outside while still recovering from the C-section.\u00a0 I had the baby in my arms, and outside was very hot and crowded so that there was hardly breathing space. Everybody wanted to see their family members in jail, but they looked so frightened as well, because of the accusations and propaganda everywhere. You could see lots of banners which talked about the so-called terrorist organization, Feto. There was a state of emergency, and lots of handouts about the so-called terrorists. The officers in the jail behaves very badly. And the people who were waiting outside were crying everywhere.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I might have been the very first one among the people in this situation during that time frame. Everybody in the waiting line started to weep when they saw me with a newborn infant. And I still had my pajamas on me, since it was just a week after the C-section. I was in complete shock. I did not eat, drink and did not take care of myself during that time. It is very hard to explain the state of mind that I was in. During the 21 months since my husband was arrested, the only time I missed a visit was the week that I delivered my baby. Other than that, I was always there.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Those days were so tough for us. It is beyond words to describe the situation in the meeting place of jail. It was so crowded, and people were crushing each other because of the crowd. Some people were crying, especially the mourning of the old men was so touching. My husband stayed in a ward for 8 people with 32 people. Can you imagine that? The place is for 8 people, but they made them stay with 32 people. They needed to sleep on the floor in front of restrooms. The officers did not give them water for some time. Everything was hard, sending them clothes, books, and other needs\u2026\u00a0 <\/span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span>\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Let me wrap this up: If you ask me what this process took away from me, I should say it is my motherhood feelings. I could not feel that I was the mother of my baby because of the fear that surrounded my heart. Every night before sleep, I was afraid of police cars coming and arresting me with their blue-red lights flashing. This fear took away my feelings of motherhood. I think for that whole year that I could not concentrate on my baby and\u00a0 I wasn\u2019t aware of that. My neighbors told me later things now that I notice: I did not take my baby to my lap, I did not hug her. I can say that I have recently started to feel that I am a mother. After one complete year…<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u00a0 don\u2019t even mention my husband\u2019s state of mind. He has never felt his fatherhood. I could say that these events took away 21 months from the lives of my baby and I. And I have a fear of having a second child and experiencing the same things again. A fear of separating from my husband again. <\/span>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\n

But I want to think this way: My husband and I, we just consider the sake of\u00a0 God. In history, all righteous people had lots of troubles throughout their lives. Our Prophet Muhammad had many difficulties for his entire life. But living under those circumstances is very different than telling them and listening to them. I\u2019m 29 years old and trying to relieve myself by thinking that 21 months of pressure is not a big deal, compared to the lives of the pious people in history. I\u2019m praying for everyone who is under pressure and I believe that nobody is praying just for themselves. I hope and pray for the safety of all my friends under pressure.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Tuesdays are the visitation days for us. I delivered my baby on Monday so the day after that Monday I could not go to see my husband, but next Tuesday I took the baby to the visitation. He wasn\u2019t expecting to see our baby that day. Actually, while I was in labor, I called the prison officer, and asked him to let my husband know about that. But the officer refused to convey that message to him. That was so heartbreaking for me. Labor is painful but I was also crying because of that. I was already lonely, but felt lonelier thinking that my husband did not know and could not pray for me during this time. I had my cousin with me that day. And somebody from your family needs to sign the hospital papers. My cousin was the one who had to do the paperwork. It made me so sad that my husband could not be present there with us and could not sign the papers.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

That Tuesday right after my delivery, my in-laws went to visit my husband, and told him that I delivered our baby last night. My husband told them that he saw me in his dream last night while I was in labor. This made me very emotional. Even though the officer refused to convey my message, God was there to convey my message to my loved one. When I took the baby to him next Tuesday, we just cried and cried by staring each other silently. The visitations were already short, 25 minutes. And there were always 4-5 people to visit and see him, so we didn\u2019t have so much time to talk. Crying by looking at each other was a way of deep communication that we had…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

By the way, my husband was always confident and calm. I have never seen him hopeless during the visitations. He was the one who cheered me up even though I should have been the one to cheer him up. He always said that the difficulties that we were going through must be in our destiny. And we need to believe in the Divine decree, so we should be patient and be hopeful that everything would be alright. It was very tough for me. His positive attitude helped me to stay strong during all the suffering. If he showed a little bit of hopelessness, I know it could be much harder for me to get through all 21 months without him being at home.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

<\/span>Thank God I did not see any hardships either from my family or from my in-laws. I heard a lot of stories of disownment of children by their families, but I have to be thankful to God that my family was not one of them.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Let me tell you the story right after the coup attempt. A week after the coup, a few of my husband\u2019s friends got arrested. One night a few days after their arrest, my husband and I were spending time together in one of the nearest parks in our apartment complex. I asked him what would we do if he got arrested. Don\u2019t even think about those things. And then I slept.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Next morning, he was getting ready for work. It was around 8 in the morning. While looking at him, I just kind of felt that he was not going to come back. He had the same feeling, and said goodbye to me. We texted each other until 12 pm. He was OK until that time. But, he did not see my messages after that. By the way, we were staying at my mother\u2019s home for the last couple of days, and they were living in the same apartment complex with us. While texting my husband, I invited him, along with a friend from his office, to have lunch at my mother’s house. But his friend did not want to come.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Then, my husband dropped off his friend to his home. He then went to our house to collect some baby clothes and dropped them off to my parent\u2019s house. After that he wen to pick up his friend, then he saw a lot of shoes at the entrance of his friend\u2019s unit. My husband then realized that they were the police. They opened the door and saw my husband. When they asked who he was, he said he was a friend of the guy they are prosecuting. Then, the police said since his friend was a terrorist, my husband was also a terrorist. And they tried to arrest my husband. He resisted and declined the accusations. Then, they used force and handcuffed him behind-the-back. They took him to our home.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I was trying to reach my husband when all this was happening. I was texting to him and to his friends, but he did not reply and nobody knew what had happened to him. Then, I called my father to go with me and check my husband in the office together. We went to the office, but his friends at the office had not seen him after lunch time, which was at 12:00 pm. At that moment, the police were taking my husband to our home and my husband asked them to remove the handcuffs. Since he was just an innocent teacher, he did not want to be seen with them in our apartment complex. The police said that he was a terrorist, and everybody should see it. Then, they came to our unit to search. In the meantime, my father and I were still looking for my husband in every possible location we knew.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

While we were on the way home, my husband was with the police and he told me later that he saw us but kept silent, since he was worried the same thing could also happen to me. When we came back home, we could tell that somebody had been there. An hour later, I got a call from the police office to let me know that my husband was in custody. It was a really tough 4 days for all of us. My husband was put in detention on Tuesday, July 26, which is 11 days after the coup attempt. The police put so many people with my husband in the same dark room. The room was always dark, as I heard from another friend\u2019s wife. The police forced them to lean against a wall and beat them at their neck. They also forced them to say that they were terrorists.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Later on, I heard that a friend of my husband was beaten because he recited Adhan (the call to daily prayers) in the detention room. Luckily, my husband was not beaten too much, but we learned that another man\u2019s eardrum had ruptured because he was beaten severely on the face. The police hit the detainees in spots where there was no camera. That is exactly what was written in the statement of my husband. There was no food during that detention period. The police brought my husband to the courthouse on Friday at around 11 AM. After 12 hours, at 12 AM, my husband was arrested on accusations of being a terrorist. I was not in the courthouse during that time, since I was in my 9th month of pregnancy. A friend told me that there were 9 detainees, while the number of armed policemen was 50 to 60. That was pretty interesting to see that huge number of armed police officers for just 9 innocent civilian men.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

The families were also in the courthouse to see their loved ones. While the police were taking the 9 people out of courthouse, the members from their families all screamed to their loved ones to be able to show them their support. When my husband and the other 8 people were first brought to the prison, officers put them into a nasty, barn-like place where they stayed for a day. Then, the prisoners were placed in relatively better wards. The conditions were better, but still the warden allocated 32 people in a place that was supposed to hold 8 people at max.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

During the trials, I can say that the judges were not even listening to the defendants\u2019 statements. There were 3 judges in the last trial for my husband; one of them was taking photos of himself, the other one was sleeping, and the main judge was playing with a paper in his hand while he was pretending to listen. I\u2019m trying to depict one of the trials in the courtroom.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

They did not listen to anything. One of the judges told a defendant to \u201cStop the bullshit\u201d by saying that he listened to those kind of stories a lot. That was the case for 4 different trials. And all were like that. Let me tell you about the two men who were forced to blame my husband and some of his friends. They were forced to play a witness to accuse my husband and his friends!? The police removed all the clothes of one of these two men and left him naked. And then brought a document and ordered him to sign. That person fainted at that moment, and afterwards when he was awake again, the policeman brought the picture of his wife, and blackmailed him with bringing his wife to the police station.<\/span><\/p>\n

That man said all this in the courtroom while he was crying. And then he took back his declaration after that. At the last court trial, there was another man who reacted the same as the previous one. He said that he was tired of all this. His wife miscarried her baby during the 4th month. They forced him to sign a paper by showing his wife\u2019s picture to him, and threatening to bring his wife to the police station. And, in that court, he also took back his statement. There was another accuser in my husband\u2019s file. He also said that it was dictated to him to say specific sentences. Unfortunately, that is the way of the judiciary in these days. Another friend told me that, in one of their trials, the judge told them that they could talk through the end of the day, but his decision was already determined.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

They also tried to use tricks on my husband and force him into confessing against others. They manufactured stories about him through his friends such as some of his friends accused him of wrongdoings. My husband was arrested on July 2016, his file was prepared in February 2017, and the first court trial was on June 2017 which was 11 months from the beginning of the process. Right now, 10 more months have passed and we will have the 5th court trial. Nobody knows if it is going to end or not.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

My husband and I really wanted to go abroad, but it did not happen. That is my biggest regret. You always think that if you could be in another country, you would be safe and things would be so different. But we were in Turkey, and we had to live through all this. You can only get all these thru the belief of destiny, otherwise it is really hard to endure.<\/span><\/p>\n

My family and my husband\u2019s family are my only financial support. I don\u2019t have any other income. Actually, nobody will hire me because of my husband\u2019s case. He will have another trial in 10 days. I\u2019m hoping and praying for him to be out of jail as soon as possible. And I do the same prayer for all other innocent people. It is going to be a celebration day for me when I see all the innocent ones outside of the jail.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I want her (my daughter) to unite with her dad. I want her to grow up in a real family environment. She had a chance to see her father, she has lots of pictures with him from prison visits. But still, it must be so hard for her to be away from her father. I want to educate my baby properly. It is hard in this series of events, but I know that education is essential for the future even under these circumstances.<\/span><\/p>\n

I try to take my baby to the visitations at least once every 2-3 weeks. She doesn’t know her father. I show his photos to her, and try to let her know him better. During visits, she can hug my husband without knowing who he really is. It is beyond her comprehension to understand and realize the figure of a \u201cfather\u201d. It is so hard to have that family notion for her. That makes me so feel heartbroken. I don\u2019t know how it would affect us in the future not having a proper father figure in her life.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Let me tell you a story about my niece, who is 3 years old. She asked me one day if we don\u2019t have a home to live in, and I responded no, we don\u2019t. Then, I asked her if she knew my daughter\u2019s father. She said yes, and pointed out my brother. My 3 years old niece thinks that my brother is my daughter\u2019s father. This is unfortunately what it is. Thanks to my brother, he is taking care of my daughter pretty well. I do not know how things will play out in the future.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

This is not a one person drama in which I\u2019m suffering all alone. This affects a lot of people\u2019s lives. I hope and pray for everybody\u2019s relief. I just think that somebody could be in a worse situation and I want peace for them. I hope there will be a day of justice and salvation in the world.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Sesimi kayda alabilirsiniz. Konusmama o ilk malum geceden (15 Temmuz 2016) bahsederek baslayayim. O gun ben 9 aylik hamile ve e\u015fimde rahats\u0131zd\u0131. E\u015fimle beraber gece uyurken, aniden bir hengame ile uyandik. O gece olanlardan dolayi hic uyuyamadik. Ne olup bitti\u011fini anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Isin bize dokunacagi hic aklimin ucundan gecmedi. Ben 9 aylik hamile oldugum icin be\u015fik, \u00e7ocu\u011fun e\u015fyalar\u0131, kiyafet alisverisini son d\u00f6neme b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130nsan bazen hissediyor herhalde, bir an once cocugun esyalarin, k\u0131yafetlerine bakmak istedim. E\u015fimle 10 gun boyunca bebegimin ihtiyaclarina bakmaya calistik. Esim benimle beraber besik bakarken g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131. Gozaltinda oldugu o 4 gunu size anlatamam. Sahibimiz Allah, ama o d\u00f6nemde dedim ki \u201cAllahim beni sahipsiz birakma.\u201d Evli ve 9 aylik hamile oldu\u011funuzda hersey cok farkli oluyor.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Duygularim alinmis, ruh gibi, ne hissetti\u011fimi bilmiyordum. Sadece a\u011fl\u0131yor, ve \u201cAllah’im beni sahipsiz b\u0131rakma\u201d diyordum.\u00a0 E\u015fim bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te tutuklandi, ve ilk cezaevine gitti\u011fimizde g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131nda \u00e7ok az insan vard\u0131. Bu arada ben hamileydim ve bir hafta sonra da do\u011fum yapt\u0131m.\u00a0 Bu arada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe bir hafta gidemedim. Bir hafta sonra gitti\u011fimdeki kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 size anlatamam. Bizi iki \u00fc\u00e7 saat d\u0131\u015far\u0131da beklettiler. Ben yeni sezeryanli ve \u00e7ocugum 7 g\u00fcnl\u00fck kuca\u011f\u0131mda. \u00a0 S\u0131ca\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda ve mah\u015fer alan\u0131 gibiydi. Herkes birbirine g\u00f6rmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, ama herkes korkuyor. Zaten \u201cFeto\u201d falan diye her tarafa afi\u015fler asm\u0131\u015flar. Her tarafta yasaklarla alakali kagitlar var. Orada \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan gorevlilerin tutumu \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc ve herkes a\u011fl\u0131yordu.(3.00)\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ve ben ilk do\u011fum yapand\u0131m. Orada herkes beni g\u00f6r\u00fcp a\u011fl\u0131yordu. Ben o esnada\u00a0 sezeryanli, lohusa pijamalar\u0131 ile gelmi\u015ftim. Ben o dogum zamani hi\u00e7 kendimle ilgilenemedim. O bir hafta banyo yapamadim, giymedim, yemedim, i\u00e7medim. O hali size anlatamam. Esim 21 aydir tutuklu ve ben sadece bir hafta goruse gidemedim, o da dogum yaptigim haftaydi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00c7ok zor g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7irdik. O g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131 yani anlatamam. Kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131, insanlar\u0131n birbirlerini itmesi kalkmas\u0131n\u0131, yani anlat\u0131lmaz ya\u015fan\u0131r diyorlar ya, \u00f6yle bir durum. \u00c7ok zorlu bir surec, A\u011flayan var – O ya\u015fl\u0131 amcalar\u0131n a\u011flamas\u0131. E\u015fim 8 ki\u015filik ko\u011fu\u015fta 32 ki\u015fi kalm\u0131\u015flar. Lavabolar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde yatm\u0131\u015flar. Su vermemi\u015fler, kiyafet, kitap vb. Hani akla gelebilecek her t\u00fcrl\u00fc ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131 bir zorluktu. Gercekten cok zorlu anlardi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ozetlemek gerekirse, bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 benden en \u00e7ok neyi g\u00f6t\u00fcrdu diye sorarsan\u0131z, cevabim \u201cAnneli\u011fim\u201d olurdu. \u00c7ocu\u011fumu hissedemedim.\u00a0 \u015e\u00f6yle ben her gece uyurken d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya bak\u0131yor, mavi-k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131k gelir, polis gelir mi ve benide alir mi diye dusunup dururdum. Geceler boyu o korku, annelik\u00a0 duygumu ald\u0131. Yani o duyguyu hissedemedim. Ben bir y\u0131l kendimi toparlayamad\u0131m. Komsularim bana cocugumu almadigimi, onu sevmedigimi soylediler. Ama ben bunun fark\u0131nda bile de\u011fildim. Sonradan bana anlatt\u0131klar\u0131nda ben onu bir yil sonra hissettim. Daha yeni anneli\u011fimi hissediyorum.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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E\u015fimi hi\u00e7 s\u00f6ylemiyorum, babal\u0131k duygusunu o da hissetmedi. Bu durum benden 21 ay anneli\u011fimi ald\u0131 diyebilirim. Bir korku oldu art\u0131k ve acaba ileride ikinci bir \u00e7ocu\u011fum olursa e\u015fim yeniden b\u00f6yle olur mu? B\u00f6yle s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ya\u015farm\u0131y\u0131m diye psikolojik a\u00e7\u0131dan beni \u00e7ok etkiledi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ama \u015f\u00f6yle de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Biz Allah’\u0131n r\u0131zas\u0131 dedik ve onu g\u00f6zetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Hep s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar \u00e7ekilmi\u015f diye anlattik. Ama anlatmakla ya\u015famak \u00e7ok ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. O Efendimiz\u2019 in ge\u00e7ti\u011fi yollar ger\u00e7ekten dikenliymis. Ben 29 ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m ve yasimi aya \u00e7arparsak ka\u00e7 ay yap\u0131yor bilmiyorum. Diyorum ki e\u011fer ger\u00e7ekten Allah’\u0131n r\u0131zas\u0131 varsa\u00a0 21 ay \u00e7ok bir zaman degil. Rabbim bir an \u00f6nce selamete erdirsin t\u00fcm darda olanlar\u0131 kurtars\u0131n. S\u00f6yle bir \u015fey; \u015fu an hi\u00e7 kimse de kendisi i\u00e7in dua etmiyor ve bencil davranm\u0131yor. Herkes birbirine dua ediyor. Rabbim de herkesi selamete erdirsin.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Bizim gorus gunumuz Sali gunleriydi.Ben sal\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc do\u011fum yapt\u0131m,\u00a0 di\u011fer sal\u0131 e\u015fime bebe\u011fi g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Aslinda esim cok kalabalik oldugu icin beni beklemiyordu. Ben doguma gittigimde aksam 4 gibiydi. Cezaevini arayip esime doguma gittigimi haber varmek icin aradim. Telefonda konustugum gardiyan \u201cBen bunu iletemem, ancak savcilik karariyla iletirim.\u201d dedi. Ben cok agladim, doguma gozyaslariyla girdim. Dogum kagidina yakinim olarak kuzenim imzalamisti. Ben buna cok uzulmustum.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Gardiyan esime s\u00f6ylemedi. Ben o g\u00fcn doguma\u00a0 girdim, ve dogumdan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Ama s\u00fcrekli a\u011fl\u0131yorum.\u00a0 Dogumdan sonra kay\u0131nvalidemler g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe gittiler. E\u015fime \u201cK. do\u011fum yapt\u0131\u201d demisler.\u00a0 Ve e\u015fimin tepkisi \u015foyle olmu\u015f \u201cAnne d\u00fcn gece r\u00fcyamda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm e\u015fimi do\u011fum yaparken\u201d. Ben dedim ki \u201cAllah onlara birakmadi. Allah bildirdi do\u011fum yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ani\u201d dedim. O zaman cok sevinmistim. Rabbim bizleri g\u00f6r\u00fcyor.\u00a0 \u00c7ocu\u011fu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde e\u015fim de, ben de sadece a\u011flad\u0131k. C\u00fcnk\u00fc en g\u00fczel zaman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, en ozel animizi orada ya\u015fad\u0131k. Gorusmeler yar\u0131m saat bile de\u011fildi. O zaman \u00e7ok kalabal\u0131k oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in 25 dakika filan veriyorlard\u0131. Ve bizler 4-5 ki\u015filik gruplar halinde girdigimiz icin gorusmelerimiz yakla\u015f\u0131k 5 dakika s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Sadece a\u011fl\u0131yor, esimin g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7ine bak\u0131yordum.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Benim e\u015fim her zaman dikti, ve hi\u00e7bir zaman onu \u00fcmitsiz g\u00f6rmedim. Her zaman o bana moral veriyordu. Ben gitti\u011fimde normalde benim ona moral\u00a0 vermem gerekir iken, her gitti\u011fimde o bana moral veriyordu. Ve esim hep \u201ckader\u201d dedi. Ben bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te, \u00e7evremdeki herkes, esim de; \u201cKader, kaderimizde varmis. Ben buraya girecekmi\u015fim ve bu sekilde olmasi gerekiyormus\u201d dedi. Ben de diyorum ki \u201cAllah’\u0131m kadere iman ne kadar zormu\u015f, diger iman\u0131n \u015fartlar\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7tim, kadere iman o kadar zormu\u015f.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

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E\u015fim her zaman dikti ve \u00fcmit vard\u0131. E\u015fimden de Allah raz\u0131 olsun bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te de hep onun \u00fcmitvar olu\u015fu beni ayakta tuttu. E\u011fer o da k\u00f6t\u00fc olsayd\u0131 bu 21 aylik surec \u00e7ok daha\u00a0 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 ge\u00e7erdi.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ben ne kendi ailemden ne de e\u015fimin ailesinden hi\u00e7bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ya\u015famad\u0131m.\u00a0 Her zaman destek g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, ve her zaman arkamdalardi. Burada \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 \u015feyler duyuyorum. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe giderken s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131ya girenler, ailesi taraf\u0131ndan reddedilen insanlar var. \u00c7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ben iki taraftan da hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 ya\u015famad\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc, darbeden bir hafta sonra e\u015fimin birka\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0 Aradan iki \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn ge\u00e7ti. Pazartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc ak\u015fam b\u00f6yle e\u015fimle biz baya\u011f\u0131 da vakit ge\u00e7irdik.\u00a0 Gece 12.00, annemler ayni sitede oturdugu icin parkta gezdik, oyalandik. Ertesi g\u00fcn sabah oldu ve sabah namaz\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra e\u015fimin yan\u0131na oturdum. Dedim ki \u201cSen gozaltina\u00a0 al\u0131n\u0131rsan biz ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z\u201d dedim. O da \u201cSus \u00f6yle \u015feyler akl\u0131na getirme, git yat\u201d dedi. Neyse ben de uyudum.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sonra esim sabah 8 gibi i\u015fe gidiyordu ve bende ona \u00f6yle bak\u0131yordum. Bazen insan hissediyor, bilmiyorum ama e\u015fim giderken \u201cHani dedi bir daha g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femeyiz belki\u201d dedi ve \u00f6yle gitti. Ise gittikten sonra saat 12’ye kadar durmadan e\u015fime mesaj at\u0131yorum. \u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n?\u00a0 \u0130yi misin? Bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 var m\u0131?\u201d e\u015fim ise \u201c\u0130yiyim, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yok\u201d diye cevap veriyordu. Saat \u00f6\u011flen 12.00 gibi e\u015fim ile b\u00f6yle s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lardan falan bahsedince dedim ki \u201cya hi\u00e7 evimize gidemeyece\u011fiz sanki\u201d. O mesaj\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc ve di\u011fer mesajlar\u0131min hi\u00e7birisini g\u00f6rmedi. Benim e\u015fiminki tamamiyle ger\u00e7ekten kader. \u0130\u015fyerinden arkada\u015f\u0131yla ben annemlere yeme\u011fe cagirdim ama arkada\u015fi gelmek istememi\u015f.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Arkada\u015f\u0131 ile birlikte gidiyorlar ve arkada\u015f\u0131ni eve b\u0131rak\u0131yor. E\u015fim de \u00e7ocu\u011fun k\u0131yafetlerini\u00a0 annemlere getirmek i\u00e7in eve gidiyor. Kiyafetleri al\u0131yor. Arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na giderken, arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131n evine gitti\u011finde\u00a0 polisler kap\u0131daymis. Arkada\u015f\u0131ni almaya gelmi\u015fler. E\u015fim yukar\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor, bak\u0131yor kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde b\u00f6yle ayakkab\u0131lar var, haliyle i\u015fkilleniyor. Geri \u00e7ekiliyor sonra yukar\u0131 bir \u00fcst kata \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor. \u0130\u015fte kim o\u00a0 falan deniliyor. Sonra e\u015fim a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya iniyor. Polisler \u201cGel bakal\u0131m, sen kimsin diyorlar.\u201d Yakalanan kisi arkada\u015f\u0131m diyor. Polisler esime \u201cBu ter\u00f6rist, o zaman sen de ter\u00f6ristsin\u201d diyorlar. E\u015fimi de almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar, orada esim hatta biraz direniyor. Hatta esime herhalde darp da uyguluyorlar.\u00a0 Biraz b\u00f6yle kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca sonra e\u015fime ters kelep\u00e7e yap\u0131yorlar ve eve g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ben o s\u0131rada e\u015fime s\u00fcrekli ula\u015fmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Arkada\u015flar\u0131na, kendisine mesaj at\u0131yorum ama kimse ula\u015fam\u0131yor.\u00a0 Sonra ben babam\u0131 arad\u0131m. Annem de evdeydi ama anneme bisey soylemedim. A\u011flayarak babama \u201cBen e\u015fime ula\u015fam\u0131yorum, gidelim i\u015fyerine\u201d dedim. \u0130\u015fyerine gittik, fakat oradakiler de\u00a0 bilmiyor. \u00d6\u011fle aras\u0131 \u00e7iktigini ve bir daha gelmediklerini s\u00f6ylediler. Saat 2.00 olmu\u015ftu, ve ben e\u015fimle en son saat 12 de mesajla\u015ft\u0131m. Saat 2.00 olmustu fakat biz hala esime ulasamiyorduk.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Sonra e\u015fimi ters kelep\u00e7e yap\u0131yorlar ve eve g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar. E\u015fim \u201cBen bir \u00f6\u011fretmenim, en az\u0131ndan kelep\u00e7eyi kald\u0131r\u0131n\u201d demi\u015f.\u00a0 Esim apartmanda kimse g\u00f6rmesin eve girelim aray\u0131n, \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra geri kelep\u00e7elemelerini istemis. Ancak polis \u201cSenin ter\u00f6rist oldu\u011funu binadaki herkes g\u00f6rs\u00fcn\u201d diyerek istedigini reddetmis. Daha sonra eve geliyorlar ar\u0131yorlar ve biz bu arada babamla oradan oraya gidiyoruz, esimi ariyoruz.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Biz eve giderken e\u015fim polislerle d\u00f6n\u00fcyormu\u015f. Esim polislerle ge\u00e7erken babamla beni gormus. Ama bana da bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 olur diye hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylememi\u015f. Biz eve geldi\u011fimizde zaten evi aramislardi. Aradan bir saat ge\u00e7tikten sonra merkezden arad\u0131lar, ve esimin g\u00f6zalt\u0131nda oldu\u011funu belirttiler. O 4 g\u00fcn \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130sterseniz esimin g\u00f6zalt\u0131ndaki zamanlar\u0131ndan da bahsedeyim. E\u015fim sal\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nd\u0131. Esim gozaltinda alindigi tarih Temmuz 26, hava cok sicak ve nezarethaneler kalabalik, dipdibe odaya sikistirmis gibiymis. Daha sonra e\u015fim ve beraberlerindekilerini karanl\u0131kta tutmu\u015flar. Hi\u00e7 aydinlik olmamis, hep karanl\u0131kta tutmu\u015flar.\u00a0 Ben bunu e\u015fimden duymad\u0131m. Ayni dosyada olan ba\u015fka bir arkada\u015f\u0131n e\u015finden duydum. E\u015flerimizin duvara yaslay\u0131p arkadan enselerine vurmu\u015flar. \u201cBiz ter\u00f6ristiz\u201d demelerini bu \u015fekilde soylettirmisler.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Yine e\u015fimin arkada\u015flar\u0131ndan biri nezarette ezan okudu\u011fundan dolay\u0131 dayak yemi\u015f. Benim e\u015fim \u00e7ok darp olmam\u0131\u015f, ama darp olanlar\u0131n birinin mesela kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n zar\u0131 patlam\u0131\u015f. Ayn\u0131 dosyada olan beraber g\u00f6zalt\u0131na al\u0131nan ki\u015filer bunlar ve beraber g\u00f6zalt\u0131na alindilar. \u00a0 Kameran\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde d\u00f6v\u00fcyorlarm\u0131\u015f. Hatta bu iddianamede de yaziyor. \u201cSiz beni kameranin olmadigi yerde dovdunuz. Kimseyi \u015fahit tutmadiniz ama Allah \u015fahit\u201d diyor. Tabii yeme icme yok. Cuma gunu oglen 11.00- 12.00 gibi adliyeye getiriyorlar ve esim gece 12.00 gibi de tutuklandi. Ve bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te hamile oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in adliyeye gidememi\u015ftim.\u00a0 Adliyede olan bir arkada\u015f \u201c9 ki\u015fi g\u00f6zalt\u0131na alinm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bizim dosyada ve \u00e7evik kuvvette oradaydi. Orada biz \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f ki\u015fiyiz. Ya\u015fl\u0131 amca, i\u015fte kimin karde\u015fi, kimin kar\u0131s\u0131, 10 ki\u015fi falaniz. 10 ki\u015fiye belki 50 tane 60 tane cevik kuvvet getirdiler.\u201d diyor.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Arkadasim anlatti; saat 12.00 gibi e\u015flerimizi adliyeden \u00e7\u0131karken herkes eslerine seslerini duyurmak icin bagirmis.Ortam baya bir sikintiliymis, arkadasimin esi ona herkesin cezaevine giden agladigini soylemis. Cezaevine geldiklerinde e\u015flerimizi ilk \u00f6nce \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc, ah\u0131r gibi bir yere koymu\u015flar ve bir g\u00fcn orada tutmu\u015flar. Sonra daha \u015fartlar\u0131 iyi olan ko\u011fu\u015flara koymu\u015flar. Ama tabii ki 32 ki\u015fiden bahsediyoruz yani, 8 ki\u015filik ko\u011fu\u015fta 32 ki\u015fi.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Burada 2. ve 3. agir ceza durusmalari var. \u0130le g\u00f6re de\u011fi\u015fiyor, ilden\u00a0 ziyade a\u011f\u0131r cezalara g\u00f6re de de\u011fi\u015fiyor. Duru\u015fmalar sanki duvara konu\u015fuyormu\u015f gibi geciyor. Kendinizi anlatmaya calisirsiniz duvara da boyle tepki vermez. Duru\u015fmalarda boyle geciyor. Bizim dosyada hakim hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde dinlemiyor. En sonki duru\u015fmada \u00fc\u00e7 tane hakim vardi. Bir ba\u015fkan iki tane de \u00fcyesi var. Bir tanesi foto\u011fraf \u00e7ekiniyordu, biri uyukluyordu, ba\u015fkan da s\u00fcrekli elinde ka\u011f\u0131t b\u00f6yle dinliyormu\u015f gibi yap\u0131yordu. Ben size mahkemeyi anlat\u0131yorum.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ve anlat\u0131lan hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi dinlemiyor. Hakim bir tane san\u0131\u011fa \u201cGe\u00e7 bunlar\u0131, ben bunlar\u0131 \u00e7ok dinledim\u201d dedi. Biz 4 duru\u015fma ge\u00e7irdik ve d\u00f6rd\u00fcnde de ayn\u0131 durum vardi. Mesela birinden bahsedeyim, daha do\u011frusu iki ki\u015fiden bahsedeyim. Bunlar\u0131n ikisini de e\u015flerimiz hakk\u0131nda zorla itirafa zorlamislar. Birinin \u00f6n\u00fcne esinin fotografini koymuslar. \u00c7ok \u00f6z\u00fcr diliyorum soymu\u015flar tamamiyle \u00e7\u0131r\u0131l\u00e7\u0131plak. \u00c7ok \u00f6z\u00fcr diliyorum. Sonra da \u00f6n\u00fcne bir tane ka\u011f\u0131t getirmi\u015fler. Bunu imzalayacaksin demi\u015fler. Zaten bu ki\u015fi orada bayilmis. Sonradan \u00f6n\u00fcne e\u015finin foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 getirmi\u015fler ya bunu imzalayacaksin ya da e\u015fini buraya getirece\u011fiz diye zorla imzalatm\u0131\u015flar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Mahkemede bunlar\u0131 a\u011flayarak anlatt\u0131, ve ifadesini geri \u00e7ekti. En son ki mahkemede de yine ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde biri hakime isyan etti. \u201cYeter art\u0131k!\u201d dedi. \u201cBenim e\u015fim \u00e7ocu\u011funu kaybetti.\u201d\u00a0 Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te esi hamileymis ve 4 ayl\u0131k \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 kaybediyor. Ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde ona da e\u015fiyle zorluyorlar, ve o \u015fekilde ka\u011f\u0131t imzalat\u0131yorlar. O kiside geri \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. Bizim dosyada itiraf\u00e7\u0131 biri var. O itiraf\u00e7\u0131 da polis zoruyla, polisin elinde ki bir ka\u011f\u0131t ile, o itiraf\u00e7\u0131ya sen \u015funu diyeceksin, bunu diyeceksin zorlamislar. Orada da bir zorlama var. Duru\u015fmalar\u0131n, g\u00f6zalt\u0131ndakileri hali durumu boyle. Duvara konu\u015fuyorsun, tepki yok. \u0130stersen \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n. Karar belli. Hatta bu en son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fte bir arkada\u015f anlat\u0131yor, onlarin ge\u00e7en hafta mahkemesi vard\u0131.Hakimin tepkisi \u015f\u00f6yleymi\u015f. Karar\u0131 vermi\u015f hakim. Demi\u015f ki\u00a0 \u201cSu tarihte 7. mahkeme olacak. Ama biz ak\u015fama kadar buraday\u0131z. Siz konu\u015fun.\u201d Anlatabildim mi duru\u015fmalar\u0131n halini?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Mesela e\u015fime bir zorlama olmus. 3 ki\u015finin foto\u011fraf\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermi\u015fler. E\u015fime demi\u015fler ki seni arkada\u015f\u0131n sana \u015funu bunu s\u00f6yledi gibi b\u00f6yle \u015feyler olmu\u015f. E\u015fimi de \u00e7ok zorlamislar. Esim 2016’n\u0131n Temmuz\u2019unda tutukland\u0131. 2017’nin Subat\u2019\u0131nda dosya a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. 2017’nin Haziran\u2019\u0131n 1’inde ilk mahkeme oldu. Yani 11 ay sonra ilk mahkeme oldu, ve \u015fuan \u00fczerinden 10 ay ge\u00e7ti. Biz daha 5. mahkemeyi olaca\u011f\u0131z. Sonuca\u00a0 ba\u011flanacak m\u0131, ertelenecek mi belli de\u011fil.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Biz e\u015fimle yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131na gelmeyi \u00e7ok istiyorduk, nasip olmad\u0131. ‘Ke\u015fkem\u2019 belki bu y\u00f6nde olabilir. Ama bundan sonras\u0131 i\u00e7in, yani bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 i\u00e7in hep \u201cKader\u201d dedik. Hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc\u2026 Anlatamam size, belki de anlatam\u0131yorum… Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 ama hep \u201cKader\u201d dedik.\u00a0 \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kader demeseydik bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 insan\u0131n akl\u0131na mukayyet olabilecegi bir d\u00f6nem de\u011fil. \u0130man\u0131n \u00e7ok zor tutabilece\u011fi bir donem. Ke\u015fke yurt d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda olabilseydik.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ailem ve e\u015fimin ailesi destek oluyorlar. Ba\u015fka herhangi bir yerden gelirim yok. Zaten \u015fu anda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak istesem bile bu durumdan dolay\u0131 i\u015f vermiyorlar. \u0130n\u015fallah bizim 10 g\u00fcn sonra mahkememiz var. E\u015fim \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n hay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131yla, kimse kalmas\u0131n i\u00e7eride, geride kimse kalmas\u0131n.\u00a0 Herkesin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn ger\u00e7ekten bizim i\u00e7in bayram olur. Yani unutmak istiyorum herhalde.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Babas\u0131na kavu\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum, tam bir aile ortaminda olmasini istiyorum. Bir s\u00fcr\u00fc asl\u0131nda an\u0131s\u0131 oldu onun da. Babas\u0131 ile bir s\u00fcr\u00fc i\u00e7erde foto\u011fraflar\u0131 oldu. Bilmiyorum k\u00f6t\u00fc an\u0131lar ama… \u00c7ocu\u011fuma sadece e\u011fitim ald\u0131rmak istiyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu s\u00fcreci biz yine sadece e\u011fitimle\u00a0 ge\u00e7eriz.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ben \u015fimdi e\u015fime, her hafta olmasa da iki \u00fc\u00e7 haftada bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fe goturmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Esimi tan\u0131m\u0131yor. A\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015flerde kuca\u011f\u0131na gitmiyor ama, onun fotografini veriyorum. \u201cK\u0131z\u0131m baba hangisi\u201d diyorum. K\u0131z\u0131m babayi g\u00f6r\u00fcyor. \u201cCanim baba\u201d diyorum kendisine. Sar\u0131l\u0131yor, \u00f6p\u00fcyor ama baba fig\u00fcr\u00fc ne bilmiyor. Baba fig\u00fcr\u00fc kafas\u0131nda \u00e7ocu\u011fun canlanm\u0131yor. Onun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda yani tam bir aile ortam\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in bu noktada bir e\u011fitim eksikli\u011fi oluyor. Buna \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum.\u00a0 Bu \u015fimdiki eksiklikler ilerde nas\u0131l kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kar onu da bilmiyorum. Baba fig\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn olmamas\u0131, oyle bir e\u011fitimin olmay\u0131\u015f\u0131…\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Benim ye\u011fenim var \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda. Yan\u0131ma geldi dedi ki \u201cK. Teyze sizin eviniz yok mu?\u201d\u00a0 Ben de \u201cYok\u201d dedim. Peki dedim \u201cSen Z’in babas\u0131n\u0131 biliyor musun?\u201d 3 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki bir \u00e7ocuktan bunu size anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. \u201cEvet biliyorum\u201d dedi.\u00a0 Kim dedim. H. day\u0131m dedi. Mesela day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 babas\u0131 olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. Karde\u015fim ilgileniyor Z. ‘le. Herhalde Z. de day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n babas\u0131 olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyor. \u0130leride de nas\u0131l bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 olur bilmiyorum ama\u00a0 o eksikligi doldurmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum.\u00a0<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Bu bu tek ki\u015filik bir s\u00fcre\u00e7 de\u011fil. Rabbim herkesi kurtars\u0131n.\u00a0 Arkada\u015flarla konu\u015fuyoruz \u201cEn iyisi biziz\u201d diyoruz. Arkada\u015f\u0131n biri i\u00e7eriye girmis, ben e\u015fim olmadan dogum yapmisim, ama daha k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyoruz. Allah herkesi selamete erdirsin.<\/span>
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